Currently, I’m separated and I’m taking Course 3: Rebuilding Wisdom and I want to say that I have always read the praise reports of other women about letting go and how important it is to let go of your EH but I could honestly not understand how is that possible. I understood that it’s what we need to do but I could not get “how”? Do I not supposed to pray for my EH? Is it about stop loving him? Is it about forgetting about him? But then I will ask myself how should I forget about him when am on RJ pouring out my heart to the journals sometimes about him/EH? I honestly failed to understand what is meant by letting go! I stopped taking my lessons even though I will visit the site for encouragement and read my books because I thought I was letting go..Lol
The other day I was sitting on my bed and talking to my HH asking him why HE took away my husband from me. What might help is to understand how I met my husband: My first year in University he proposed me and I rejected him saying that I did not want him to disturb my studies, he was persistent but I told him no, we can’t be together I need to focus on my studies and you are going to be a problem. Then on my final year of studies which was the fourth year and then the feeling of wanting to be with him came to me but that was never a plan that we will be together later. I rejected him like that with no believe that I will want to be with him later. Then I started praying to God that he may bring him back to my life as I felt ready and willing to be with someone. I prayed for a period of 3 months but he never showed up because I didn’t even know where he was.
Then on my final year of studies which was the fourth year and then the feeling of wanting to be with him came to me but that was never a plan that we will be together later. I rejected him like that with no belief that I will want to be with him later. Then I started praying to God that he may bring him back to my life as I felt ready and willing to be with someone. I prayed for a period of 3 months but he never showed up because I didn’t even know where he was.
So I gave up on him but a year later my God brought him to my life and I had totally forgotten about him and I was NO longer interested. (This in itself is a sign that letting go totally is a way to laying down all your burdens so your HH will carry them for you and do HIS will) but I was still without the knowledge of how one should let go of EH after reminding myself of how I met with my EH! Can you believe it?
Okay, the story of how I met with my EH gives me proof that God is the one who gave me my husband because I have asked my husband from Him and He gave him to me but the question was BUT how can You take him away?
Dear Women of God, remember the problem here was Lord how do I let go? As I was in so many tears after reminding my HH you Lord, You are the one who gave him, my EH to me, why do you now take him away? You know what my HH said, He said, “Do you remember the story of Abraham and Isaac?”
I have never cried like that! He said, “You remember how Abraham and his wife prayed and believed for a child?” I said yes! My HH said “Do you know that am the one who gave Abraham his son? I said, “Yes Lord it was You. The Lord asked me the last question and He said, “My child, I “told” Abraham to go and make a sacrifice with his only son, the son he had prayed for years, the only son he got in his old age and what did he do?”
Dear women, our HH said the earth and all that is in it belongs to Him! Our EH belongs to God, not to us! Can you imagine Abraham on his way to making a sacrifice holding his child’s hands wanting to do the will of God regardless of other things that came to his mind? Can you imagine How that was pleasing to God?!?
I want to tell you that I have totally, fully, Let go of my EH! I no longer call him my husband, his a child of God, he is the father of my child! Since that day God gave the revelation of Abraham I am so free! I am completely free! Whether I am restored or not, I will still have my peace! Women of God, I say whether or not I am restored I will still smile!
Thank you, Jesus, I gave him, my EH back to You. He is Yours, Father!
Genisis 22: Read the test of Abraham!
~ Mavis in Botswana