♕ Today's Promise: "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
☊ PR Podcast Cherie
As I was writing the translation for WW, Chapter 15 “Your Mother’s Teachings” and came to the part where it talked about regret, I was reminded of the pain I felt growing up without my mother beside me. She was working far away to help sustain our living which contributed to our family then falling apart after. It was the enemy’s plan in John 10:10 “… to steal and kill and destroy…” I never realized the wound that is so deep in my heart that it somehow added to me being the contentious, independent and strong woman I had been. Yes. I was raised being provided more than my necessities in life which made me impatient and capable of doing what pleases me.
I never liked discipline because I never had one and never had someone who will train me and guide me, and I was so full of myself because I rarely get comfort and attention and I feel like the world revolves around me, my hurt, my pain and my happiness. All full of ME. I never relied on anyone for my entire life, except after I met my EH, and I used to do things on my own and relied on my own strength. That’s when I had taken everyone for granted because I thought everybody leaves, but my EH will NEVER leave me. HE CANT. And I believed in the lie that HE WONT, NO MATTER WHAT, then he became everything to me.
Now that I'm grown up and have started this RJ with my dearly Beloved, I came to realize somehow the purpose of me going through what I am going through and help me understand better why certain things happened in my life and help set a cornerstone and a foundation for me to follow as I am raising my own son. I have no hatred for my mom and come to realize that “she just doesn’t have” what I have with my Love right now and it made me see her imperfections and weaknesses in a new light, taught me how to understand her, helped me not to judged her and how I can easily have chosen the wide road she had taken if the Lord did not chose to call on me.
I have made the decision to follow what my Love tells me to do no matter what the world decides to call on me. I maybe a fool, blind, or whatever they may choose to call me but I will stand by His words and promises to me no matter what happens. We cannot turn back time no matter how regretful we are and we must choose to follow His ways even when nothing made sense. Having many relationships and things and people taken away from me, I am now dependent on just One to survive and thrive in this life and I can look forward to each day knowing that He will never leave me nor forsake me and His love for me never fails, for as long as I live.
Dear brides, our Beloved is in the process of restoring every relationship in your life right now. Though it doesn’t seem like it, though everything seems to be falling apart, I want you to be excited again knowing that HE HAS GREATER PLANS FOR YOU, that what you had ever planned for yourself. That HIS PLANS will exceed your every expectations beyond your imaginations, if all else fails, just know that HIS LOVE will never fail and trust in His love that is healing. Just let Him, allow Him to heal every part you are aching as you cry in His arms, trust that He is there to comfort you and assure you that you will never be alone. I never was, and never will. And so do you. You are loved, cherished, and wanted and He loves you so much, more than you can ever think of.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5 NASB
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland." Isaiah 43:19 NIV
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us." Ephesians 3:20 NIV