A Lot of Deadly Mistakes

When my EH left that was the scariest thing I have ever experienced and it also meant a new chapter for me. I have never had to experience living on my own so I was terrified. I have always been home with my mom and when my EH left my first instinct was to run back home but my HH said not this time my girl you need to stay put.

So I listened and stayed. It’s been four months since my EH left and in all this time not once have I seen my mom. My HH had just moulded me into this new person who wholly n truly now runs to Him first and not to mummy hahaha I really have grown up.

I will praise thee, O LORD, with my whole heart; I will shew forth all thy marvellous works. I will be glad and rejoice in thee: I will sing praise to thy name, O thou most High. Psalm:9:1-2

This psalm truly expresses the joy that floods my soul. I would love to praise the Lord for answering my prayer.

On the first month my EH left, he wanted me sent back to my people asap and wanted me out of the house. Days after he left, a pastor shared the RMI website and I got cracking. I learnt how to pray more and since I couldn’t stomach a single thing, fasting became a part of me. I started to pray about the accommodation issue because I had nowhere to go and couldn’t get a job. I literally spent my days crying and feeling helpless.

The first month went by and my EH paid rent and kept telling me he wouldn’t pay the second month’s rent. The second month came by and he paid again and he told me he wouldn’t pay the third months rent. I just thought to myself my HH really has a great sense of humor. I was so anxious about this whole accommodation issue and I just kept bothering the Restore Team who lovingly held my hand all the way and encouraged me to trust my HH. Thank you, guys..I know u know that I love you.

I finally came to a point where I told my HH that I was tired of feeling anxious and each time I heard a noise outside the door I’d be filled with fear that I was being evicted. The lease on the property expired and this time I was so sure I’d be kicked out but my HH had it all under control. As I write my praise report 4 months later am still in the same apartment hahahaha and my HH beautifully surprised me. He made sure that my EH looked for another beautiful apartment for me.

Thank you, my HH, because you took away all my fear and replaced it with your love. I have no doubt you listen to prayer all the time.I don’t know what the future holds but am so excited about the month end move. I am taking it as a new chapter for me and my HH. I have enjoyed quality time with the Lord and am so thankful for the woman I have become.

This move also means I can finally visit my mother because I no longer live in fear of being evicted.

I will praise you oh Lord with my whole heart. It’s very very true that the Kings’ heart is in the hands of the Lord and He turns it….I saw the Lord turning my EHs heart because for the final month he had said I should search for an apartment and I was doing so and little did I know his heart had been turned to searching already.

Through this, I have also learnt to agree quickly. I wasn’t sure about the area EH wants me to move to because it’s removing from the friends I had made but then I remembered the importance of quickly agreeing and not being argumentative and it worked out just perfectly because I trust the Lord’s ways and plans.

Thank You, Lord, for always loving me and looking out for me even if I fail you at times.

I will praise thee, O LORD, with my whole heart; I will shew forth all thy marvellous works. I will be glad and rejoice in thee: I will sing praise to thy name, O thou most High. Psalm:9:1-2

The Lord has taught me the importance of praising Him always.

Today I want to shout praise and thank my Heavenly Husband because more and more I deeply realise He is all that I need. I am learning to trust Him and to lean on Him. Today I went to view the new apartment I am supposed to be moving into and I am deeply grateful.

I had a moment to reflect on the past couple of months and I realised if it hadn’t been for Him, I most probably would have made a lot of deadly mistakes that I would have later regretted.

Thank you my Heavenly Husband for the beautiful apartment. There were times when I was so deeply stressed about the accommodation issue because I wanted to take matters into my own hands. Thank you, my beloved, for always loving and looking out for me.

Psalm 23:1-3 NKJV

The Lord is my shepherd,

I shall not want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures;

He leads me beside quiet waters.

He restores my soul;

He leads me in the paths of righteousness

For His name’s sake.

The above Psalm keeps me uplifted and draws me closer to my dear Lord.

~ Fariaha in South Africa