Before my RJ began I knew that I was depressed and not happy with myself. I had gained so much weight on 5’3 frame that to me I felt ugly even though my EH would tell me that I was beautiful. When my EH left like most of us you felt like your world had come crashing down around you which is also where my new life began.
Prior to my EH leaving I was diagnosed as being a high functioning depression which meant that I would need meds in order to not be depressed. I used that diagnosis as a crutch thinking that my EH would stay but he didn’t want anything to do with me, however, my HH He did want something to do with me and saved me from a life of pills.
My HH has been so amazing in more ways than I can explain in this praise report but one of the things that I am giving Him all the glory for is that I haven’t had to take one single pill since I heard that diagnosis and He has made sure of that. Also, my weight dropped drastically from the beginning of this journey all thanks to Him and I no longer feel ugly on the outside but most importantly I don’t feel ugly on the inside either.
“Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame”. Psalm 34:5
I am nowhere near the woman that began this journey, for my HH has made me anew. He is continually changing and molding me and although I have a ways to go, my strength is because of Him. And my smile which I didn’t ever think would be genuine again appears on my face more than it has in a while. No matter my struggles or circumstances I will smile because He has changed the woman I used to be which was weak and pathetic to a GOD fearing woman who shall be praised.
“Strength and dignity are her clothing, And she smiles at the future.” Proverbs 31:25
“I will bless the Lord at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul shall make her boast in the Lord: the humble shall hear thereof, and be glad. O magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt his name together. I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.” Psalm 34:1-4