Our HH has His own interesting ways to work in our lives and in the life of our relatives.
I remember feeling frustrated all the time by my FMIL lack of interest or understanding for issues that mattered to me. I remember pleading and begging her, and she would just stay unchanged, indifferent ignoring my opinion and sticking to what suited her best.
My ePartners know how my children are a tricky issue for me and how possessive I am of them. I fight for what I consider is right for them. And rush myself into a wall with my FMIL. Yet, the LAL tour has been a life-changing experience for me. Not only did I have a wonderful RMI family around me (Sara and Tara) at my younger son´s communion. But they shared with me amazing testimonies they heard during their minister time. One was very meaningful. I heard the testimony of a woman, who had to let go of her children after an unpleasant divorce. She respected the wish of her FH and let her children live with him and his new wife (and her children). And she made the best use of the free time she got—she spent her time ministering, meeting women in desperate situations, and gave them new hope.
I thank the Lord every day I am not in this situation. When I was pregnant with my younger son, I remember feeling overwhelmed by the love and interest my in-laws had for my older son. I had the feeling I needed to fight with them to keep my son with me. That they wanted to steal him from me. And I remember praying: Dear Lord, please make sure that they will not take away this little one in my belly, that he will always stay with me. Well, as you know, our HH has very interesting ways to answer our prayers. Soon after his birth my younger son got meningitis, that was not properly treated, and is disabled as a result. But in a way, if he had not been disabled, I am sure I would have lost my children during the divorce procedures. Since I was a stay at home mum, and there was no daily center to take care of him, my FH and in-laws had no choice but leave the children into my care, although they got a lot of visiting time.
But let’s go to my point. Visiting time and summer holiday have been difficult for me, because I was giving my children to people I didn’t fully trust for my children’s care. But He changed my mind!! Tara told me: this woman did not worry about her children, because she said, she was not giving them into her FH´s care. No, she was giving her children into the fantastic care of their Heavenly Father, no one knows better than Him, what His children need!!
And since I made this fantastic discovery, my HH has turned the situation around in an incredible way! As you know from my former PR, I am doing a summer road trip to my native country with my children. I am not worried, I know He is in charge. But since learning that, my FMIL is in all possible states. She has been begging me to think it over. Today she pleaded with me to reconsider it, that she couldn’t sleep because of it, making herself sick, and she needed medication. I tried to be as encouraging and reassuring as possible. I told her I was taking my time, and I had the best protection ever, our dear Lord watching over us, who organized this whole trip for me. She was amazed by my faith, but still in pain. It was hard for me to see her that way, and all I could do was to say comforting words. But I knew it was His doing. He was working on her, and she needs to undergo this trial for a reason, that only He knows and will show at His appointed time. But it was a strange situation for me. Usually, I am the one begging. This time it was the opposite way. I realized I needed to pray for her. But, also, I needed to let her face this trial alone, because He is in charge and He has His purpose.
And He proved me once more: I am not giving my children to their father during visit time. I am giving them into His Great care and Loving arms 🙂
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 NIV
“Humble yourselves, then, under God’s mighty hand, so that he will lift you up in his own good time. Leave all your worries with him, because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7 NIV