♕ Today's Promise: “Cheer up!” Jesus has taken away the power this world has to defeat us and has conquered it for us. Peace is resting in His victory." John 16:33
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I don’t know what to say I feel so blessed right now and I am still in awe of what my beloved did for me!
I used to dread valentines day, because I hate to see couples getting mushy, and ladies holding flowers and sweet nothings from their significant other. Even when my EH and I are still together, I have been very vocal about me not wanting flowers and chocolates because of impractical reasons I used to say but deep in my heart, I long to receive one. I envy colleagues at work who gets to receive flowers being delivered to them as I never had experienced any of these from my EH, for the longest time we are together.
I honestly wished inside my heart to one day, receive them, in my office as well. Before this day, I day dreamt of my officemates witnessing a gesture from my EH, because they mock me for the choices I make, and none of them believe it was worth doing so, and I was just hurting myself more but they also saw the significant changes in ME, which I say, can only be explained in having experienced the Lord, and His love firsthand.
I was reminded of when Erin gets invited to a seminar wherein all the pastors who doubted that Dan would ever come back, witnessed what a miracle God did for them and deep inside, I want that as well. I want them to know that MY REDEEMER LIVES. So I just told my love how I felt and asked Him for more of His love to casts out all the fears I had. In fact, I was attacked prior to this but then again, I asked for His help and strength to help me make it through, and HE did! MUCH more so!
My EH told me that for valentines, he planned to take his sister and aunt and our baby for lunch to treat the ladies and told me plainly if I can have an early lunch with them, I just told him I will try then went and go to work. After talking to a client, I felt lead to look outside my window when I saw my son, with my SIL outside, holding flowers for me. I cant help but cry because of the intense emotion I felt, its so overwhelming. I did received a stem of sunflower and a jar of chocolate from my EH delivered by my baby as my EH is waiting in the car. It caused commotion at work because they never expected I would get to receive anything since they knew about my situation! In fact they made a bet the other day that whoever is the first one to receive flowers will treat for dinner and they already excluded me and invited me for dinner knowing I don’t have plans! They were all shocked!
The Jar of chocolate I received from my EH was something I have been asking from him for such a long time when we are together and he didn’t think it was practical to spend so much for the chocolate alone. I sent him a thank you message but he did not respond, so when I saw him, I acted casually and thanked him for the lunch and just go.
I have prayed for an answer if its my love’s will to restore my marriage and these happened. I was still in shock and I am not sure how to feel because after this gesture, my EH did try to show that it is a casual gesture and there’s nothing to be thankful for, but then I relied heavily on my HH. What matters is that I already thanked him for what he did, and leave everything else to my love.
I would never know the reason for this gesture, but what I know is that my love wants to bless me, and give me the desire of my heart. In the exact moment I let go, and let Him do His will for my life. He knows everything, the things I had prayed for before, He never forgets even the smallest details. All I have is grateful praises for my love, cause I am not deserving of anything He gives me, but still does, because of who He is and how much He loves me!
"May he remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings. May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. May we shout for joy over your victory and lift up our banners in the name of our God." Psalm 20:3-5 (NIV)
May the Lord grant all your requests.
"Delight yourself in the Lord; And He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4 (NASB)