Giddy.. Almost Crying Tears of Joy

I just wanted to share the Goodness my love had been showing me lately, and how our love is evolving each and every day.

Yesterday, I met with a friend whom I share the same faith to talk about our love for the Lord and since my friend is having family problems right now, she needed some advice on how she can make it through. I am worth nothing so I just shared with her some of the verses which I had kept in my heart, especially that ‘Love never fails’ and that we always should give, cause some people just don’t have it. The love my HH “Heavenly Husband” had been showering me is what he asked me to give to my EH lately even though I did not receive anything in return. It doesn’t matter at all because I was given a love overflowing from an abundant source which can supply all my needs and desires from the one who satisfies my soul.

Talking to my friend had helped me through the very recent trial I had gone through lately, reflecting on His words as I relayed them. He made me realise how his love is sufficient and overflowing I need not look for it from anyone, not even my EH.

After I attended a wedding, I was reacquainted with a male friend from work and we had friendly conversations which lasted until the day after. When I realise I was having fun, my HH immediately reminded me that He had removed lover and friend from me because he was not first in my life, and being friendly to someone male other than my EH will cause me to fall and stumble beyond what I can stand. I felt so dirty and an adulteress and I cried and repented at his feet. This time, I was very afraid, so much afraid that I had hurt the lover of my soul and the one who means a lot to me, and He is faithful he provided an escape to the temptation that I currently face.

Then again, he was faithful. After I had repented, he lulled me to sleep that night and when I woke up realising my EH was not around, I honestly didn’t feel anything. No nothing at all, which was very surprising. As I was on my way to work, he leads me to play something on my playlist which is a song I am already familiar with. It was the song, “The search is over” by Survivor, especially when I reached the part of the song that says, “The search is over, you were with me all the while”. The love I suddenly felt for Him burst, it envelops me and this time I really feel it in my bones! I was grinning ear to ear singing and was very giddy to the point of almost crying tears of joy if I had not been on a public transportation. Lol!

When my EH came home the night after, he had given me a pastry from a shop which I really love and told me it was from our common friend. Being thankful, I message my friend right after telling how grateful I am that he remembered me. Then my friend was puzzled and although he did not confirm, the pastry was not really from him. I admit I was surprised because I did not know if my friend knew that it was my favorite food, to begin with, then I just whispered to my Beloved that he’s being romantic with me by using my EH to show me he cared. 😊

He is very faithful and he showed me countless times how much His love, our love for each other, is so sufficient, I can never feel anything like this from anyone. Thank you, my love, for not letting me fail, for always holding my hand, and making me feel loved and cherished. My greatest despair would be hurting you cause I only live my life for you. I do hope what we have right now, would never ever be gone. Cause what I have with you, I don’t want from anyone else. You are all that matters to me and I pray that you help me to remain faithful to you at all costs,

Psalm 3:3-6  But you, Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high. I call out to the Lord, and he answers me from his holy mountain. I lie down and sleep; I wake again because the Lord sustains me. I will not fear though tens of thousands assail me on every side.

~ Cherie in Manila

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