♕ Today's Promise: "In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one”. Ephesians 6:16
I have a lot to be thankful for, I'm not totally sure where to start, but I want to say how amazing my God is. He knows every hair on my head and he knew just what I needed in order to draw closer to him. My earthly husband left me in March when I was 8 months pregnant with our son and I was heart broken. I couldn't understand why God would allow me to get married and have a baby if he was going to let my husband leave. If I only knew then what I know now...
I now THANK GOD for removing my husband and pulling me closer to him. How much does God love me that he saw fit to have me alone to himself? My God is so good. I moved to a whole other state to run away from the pain and embarrassment of my marriage. But, God used that bad decision for his good! No one is here but God, my baby, and I. And, I'm forever grateful for this time. He allowed me to see how wrong I was and how much I've hurt my husband. How my contentious behavior pushed him away. And, I'm grateful that God lead me to this ministry, even how it happened, it couldn't have been anyone BUT GOD!
God started to reveal to me how wrong I was in July and now in October I see him working on turning my husband's heart. And, he knows me as his bride, so every now and again God will show clear as day that he's working on my behalf. One way was when my husband filed for our divorce a few weeks ago, the paperwork was sent back to him. I showed him it was the correct address and I wasn't attempting to play games with him. But, in my heart I knew it was God showing me, He's not done yet!
The next way that God showed me he was working is by my husband blocking me on everything. I had no way to update him about our newborn son. I actually had to go on my business page to message him, he saw the message and didn't respond. And, at this point a month had passed. I decided that I needed to have more faith in God's timing so I left it alone. And one morning last week I was up talking to God and I decided to face time my husband, I didn't even think he'd answer, but he did.
And, my son got to see his dad and I was just so happy that he at least was opening up to being in our son's life. And, two days ago he and I talked. And, I told him nothing about the past matters and I have no intentions of bringing up anything or holding anything over his head. I just wanted us to be the best parents for our son. And, my husband apologized to me. If you knew my husband, you'd know that isn't like him to say sorry. So, I knew it was sincere and I knew more than anything that it was God. He even said it's hard for him to have a relationship with our son but not have a relationship with me.And, he stated he really wanted to be married to me and he wanted us to have a happy marriage and he was still really mad that it didn't work out the way he hoped.
I don't want to get my hope up that my restoration is near. I'm just thankful for these breakthroughs and thankful that I've been able to share what I've learned with other women and these lessons are carrying over to all areas of my life. I never remembered scriptures before, I was never a quiet woman, but now I mind my words. Now I can offer a scripture when someone is in need. God has done wonders in me. He's taught me humility and grace and forgiveness and I'm just so thankful that he chooses me. That God choose me as his bride. It really gets no better!
In God's timing I'll be back to share my praise report on how God restored our marriage. But, until then I'm soooo enjoying this time and journey with God! Don't lose faith ladies, let God complete the work in you. His timing is everything!