♕ Today's Promise: “I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord, be of good courage, yes, wait on the Lord.” Psalm 27:13
☊ PR Podcast Leora
I give thanks and praise to my Husband who provides ALL my needs so I can LET GO of trusting in myself or my EH to meet those needs.
I’ve been struggling with HOW will He meet my needs - which seem to be so many right now during this pandemic and separation. Since my special needs son is home and requires constant care I’ve been unable to do many of the jobs I used to be able to do. I was starting to feel sad and a pity party coming on when I looked to Him and asked Him to help me with this. He never disappoints!
First, I didn’t ask anyone except my HH for help around the house, but suddenly my oldest son, uncharacteristically, started to help with dishes. That was God! Second, my daughter uncharacteristically suggested it and has been agreeable to go into the supermarket to get our groceries while I sit with my special needs son in the car waiting - again a God thing! And third, my special needs son uncharacteristically sat quietly and watched me as I trimmed multiple tree and bush branches in the backyard. The strength to do that job and his sitting quietly was definitely from God!
Lastly, we are nearing the end of our toilet paper supply and of course in this pandemic toilet paper is scarce. So my daughter went in and out of five different grocery stores over the course of four hours without success. I asked Him where should we go? As I drove to the last store I felt He was leading me to go to I asked Him to again please help! She came back out beaming with a four roll pack and said she got the last one. We shouted hurrays and drove to a nearby location to get lunch.
Of course I knew four rolls would not last long so I reminded my daughter we would need to look for more tomorrow. Then a few hours later my neighbor came over to where I was sitting on our porch with my special needs son. She brought us a 16 roll package because we had given her a box of tissues the day before. The previous day she was in the yard and mentioned that she couldn’t find tissues anywhere and her EH has horrible allergies. So later my HH prompted me that I had two boxes of good tissues and to give her one of our two boxes so my daughter took it over to her. God is so good! Give it away and get a double blessing in return!
Those examples were all just from the past two days of seeking my Husband’s help. I’m sure He has provided more help then just these examples, but I’ve been seeking to know WHEN He provides so I can give thanks and praise Him.
Oh yes, and the last one I almost missed - it has felt like so many things are going wrong and so many tests happening right now that I’ve struggled with staying strong in His promise to restore my marriage. In despair I cried out for a sign for good Tuesday night. As I picked up my special needs son from my EH’s apartment Wednesday morning he purposefully looked right at me before closing the door. Lately he has avoided eye contact since hiring a lawyer to move forward with a separation agreement.
I’ve been LETTING GO by quick pick ups/not spending time talking and seeking my HH for everything. I wasn’t prepared and had not prayed my usual “let him see the wife of his youth and be enthralled with my beauty” and almost missed that blessing from God. My HH showed me a sign for good that while my situation seems hopeless and impossible-NOTHING is impossible with God as I drove away I thanked Him for it.
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 NIV
“And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:19 NIV
“I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord, be of good courage, yes, wait on the Lord.” Psalm 27:13 NIV
“Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”” Matthew 19:26 NIV
~ Leora in Virginia
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