I Wanted the Pain to End

Dear Brides, Please, if you long for your EH and some men for the love you desire but they cannot give, (because they just don’t have it in them) turn to the Lord and He will never forsake you. Read Chapter 3 “The Love of My Life“.

Each woman, even me, looks for the attention a man can give them that is why my beloved uses Marriage crisis (spiritual crisis) to get our attention. At first, when I came to the ministry, I wanted the pain to end. For my EH to return back to me, to have the same relationship we had for over a decade. But as I progress into my journey, I began to yearn and long for a deep relationship with my Beloved because I was weary of the pain our separation had caused me.

I clung to Him so tight because I was pregnant and alone. I knew I have him always beside me. There were times when I pressed to him so much that my EH showed so much kindness towards me. But when He created a circumstance in which He decided I was now ready to cross the other side of Jordan where battles are much tougher, pain much stronger, and my faith was being tested and heat turned up. I failed soooo many times. And each time I do, I run back to him and he never judged me. I don’t know if I lost progress in my journey which I pray I don’t but I really don’t care anymore, all I wanted now was to once again, experience the intimacy we once shared for a time.

Whenever I am alone, even with outside noise and distraction, I made it a point to talk to Him about everything, before I used to ask him to do something for me but when I realised He didn’t owe me anything, I repented, asked forgiveness and began to pray for His will to be done in my life.

Each time I plan something, he shows me that His ways are higher than mine and once again, my plan was not fulfilled so I decided to fully surrender in my heart, mind, and will. Every time I talk to him, I ask him to please fill my heart with so much love that he so much deserves for I am nothing, without Him. Although I fail, and that’s what makes this journey longer, I am happy that I can get to enjoy much more time with Him because I didn’t have my fill of Him yet and I never, can ever have this time with Him again.

Let’s pray: My love, I cannot say anything except thank and love you and asked for forgiveness for my weakness. Please, my Love, let us have this moment, much longer time, to spend with each other and may it never end. For now that I have you, I don’t want anything else.

Romans 8:31 More Than Conquerors “What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?”

Dear Brides, The love our HH can give us is beyond our imagination if we choose to embrace the principle of letting go, in everything. In thoughts, in our hearts, and in our will, I know it is hard, much more if you live with your EH and that’s what makes it even more exciting! We can think of it as having someone also, (because we do) and we get excited each time we thought of him and basked in his love so our EH can see our radiant faces despite the circumstances we are in. No, it is not a game to make them jealous, but we need to be sincere in our desires because of the pain that overwhelmed us which we wanted to be free of. This is what I will start to do from now on, and I hope and pray, so do you.

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Cherie in Manila
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