My Light in the Darkness

♕ Today's Promise: “Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

☊ PR Podcast Ruby

Dear Brides, I am so excited to tell you that I can verify everything this Finding the Abundant Life Chapter 10 "Surrender" is teaching. I have not had the right words to explain it properly. I was amazed at how I kept agreeing as I read. Saying YES! EXACTLY!! I wanted to screen shot most of it and send it to many people I know but that would take away time with Beloved. I am going to later send the link to some people if and when I'm led by My Lord. This explains why so many of us, myself included, have thought what else do I need to be doing. Many think things are going to happen all at once. I know that I have many times thought I was giving it all to the Lord and trusting Him completely but there is always more He wants. He reveals what it is to me and I'm confused because I really thought I was giving it all. This chapter will give you so much wisdom to lead you to the next step of intimacy, no matter where you are now, there is a next step.

I felt good and content this morning and the enemy or my flesh was trying to convince me to get started with other things in my day and I don't need to read a chapter today. But I didn't listen. I still came to my closet and spent the time with My Beloved and I'm so glad I did. I have been trying to explain for a while now that this journey has many levels. I probably sounded confusing to many. This chapter explains it very well. Many times through this journey we will struggle because we "think" he have given all control to the Lord and trust completely but God works on one thing at a time and you will have to work on surrendering constantly. He will start to peel all the burdens off of you like layer of an onion.

This recent layer the Lord peeled off of me was a major breakthrough that actually got rid of the fear. I mean REALLY got rid of it! I was still feeling anxious about being served with divorce papers as my earthly husband said it would happen this month. Also about all the things that came along with it, visitation, child custody, and him staying he is planning to introduce the kids and take the kids and make them stay with him at the house of the other woman. This was a tough one to swallow. I finally couldn't carry it any longer. I couldn't go on like this living in fear another minute. I got on my knees and cried out to the Lord. I surrendered it all to Him. After that I can honestly say the fear is gone. I feel so protected, at peace and I finally feel the joy that I have been praying for SO long.

There were times I was fired up and determined to trust My Lord completely and follow His principles. I was ready. So I thought. I still wasn't feeling Joy at all. Peace would come and go and fear would come and go. I didn't know why I could keep peace and why fear kept coming back. Because I still had things in my heart that I was worried about and was trying to overthink and plan what to do. I was still planning to "Be Ready" for it. Well that is still planning on our own ladies. Until I surrendered it to Him and was willing to accept what God has planned and trust He will lead me through whatever it is. Not knowing how, when or what is going to happen is actually more freeing than you think. We are so used to planning and controlling everything because we have learned to do that when it comes to taking care of our children and our homes. Then we are stressed and disappointed when things don't go as we planned. All that is burdens He doesn't want us to have. It will only turn us into terrible women, mothers and wives. We will eventually tear down our own house by our own hands. Learning God's principles and surrendering everything, as hard as it is and as long as it took, is helping in every area of my life. It is helping every relationship I have. It has totally transformed me as a person.

My Beloved, words can't say all I feel for You. I thank You for all You have done and all that You will do. I trust in Your Word. I know every battle belongs to You so the battle is already won. You are My Protector, Healer, Comfort, My Light in the darkness. You are My Joy, My Peace, My True Love. I am so in love with You. I am Yours and You are mine.

Dear Brides, I learned that even when we have reached a point in our journey we don't stop there. When we are at peace and content many of us will start to go on our days without the Lord. Start to live off our own energy til we run out, hit a struggle then we will come back to him again. Imagine a friend who behaved that way towards you. What kind of friendship or relationship would that be. We must remain focused and close to Him every day. The enemy was whispering in my ear to skip reading my chapters today. I felt content and I'm short on time for my daily activities so he saw that as an opportunity to lead me away from my Beloved. But I did not listen. I still came to be with My Love. And even though I have surrendered and I continue to surrender daily I still appreciate how this chapter renewed my heart and my mind. If I feel like I have already taken this principle to heart, it still fills my heart with My Lord, starts conversations between us and is proof that I am where God wants me to be. I have not found my one woman to encourage each other and confide in, I feel like some of these chapters are the encouraging friend. I love that I can talk to My Beloved during the chapter about things I am learning and things I have already learned. We have a laugh sometimes when We look back remembering when we went through that and got past it together lol.

~ Ruby in California
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