Late last year, a trip to Japan was planned by my EH's family last February. We were supposed to go together. After our separation, I planned on not going, although mother in law and brother in law wanted me to still come so as not to waste the reservations made.
EH learned that I didn't want to come, so he asked me and I obeyed. I thought I was going to be miserable. See, Japan was a dream trip, and I really wanted to go with the EH. Now, it was just his mom and younger brother. People were laughing at me for taking a 5-day leave from work to spend with my in-laws, workmates, strangers (the Grab driver who took me to the airport). They didn't know EH and I was separated. But I do have a good relationship with my in-laws, so it was one less thing to worry about.
But, my HH was there too, He took me. As I walked through parks, I was not really alone, He was with me, holding my hand and my heart. I felt so much love... I carried my luggage through train stations, staircases, where the EH would have carried it, my HH blessed me with the strength to lift the bags by myself. There was plenty of walking and because my in-laws walked together, it would seem I was alone, but it was such a perfect setting to be touring with my HH instead. I got to talk to Him and He was able to let me see the beauty of His creation... I was even able to take a picture of myself, looking up with the sun shining on my face, by a body of water! In Japan! I have not loved being by myself this much, until I had a HH who was always with me, warming my heart and my soul.
It was a 6-day trip that I thought I was going to hate, instead, my HH turned things around so I could enjoy my favorite place with Him.
The bonus was learning that my mother in law has a renewed relationship with the Lord. I can see that it was not a perfect relationship but she has been speaking about forgiveness. My in-laws, the siblings of both EH's parents are angry folks, siblings fight left and right, they harbor anger in their hearts. So when mother in law talked of forgiveness, I got excited. Just as the Lord wants to free our hearts from hate so we can free ourselves from anger and pain, we are also free from physical sickness, she says. I guess each one of us has to start somewhere. =)
Deuteronomy 31:6 New International Version (NIV) Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
Experiencing Him through these years, there's really no reason to fear or falter. He has proven Himself worthy of trust all this time. In trials, He has always made His presence known. In troubles, He has shown that there is always a reason for everything. We should just trust.