Numb the Feelings

♕ Today's Promise: "The LORD is gracious and merciful; slow to anger and great in lovingkindness." Psalm 145:8

☊ PR Podcast Sara

Hello dear Brides, I want to praise my Beloved HH (Heavenly Husband) for all that He is doing not just in my life but also in the lives of all the amazing Ministers that are part of RMI, in each and every PR (Praise Report) that I read, I am so grateful to be part of this amazing Ministry and have such incredible Brides in my life. Thank you, Lord, for working on their lives and thank you, ladies, for sharing your Journey with Him, bringing so much joy, hope, and encouragement.

Many of you may know a little bit of my journey, the abundant life He gave me, even though I love all about it, I still struggle with His TIME, His waiting room, but today I just want to share something that in your eyes it can be small as a man’s fist, but for me 9+is an answer to my prayers.

I'm struggling so much with the waiting that I am going through, the silence and the feeling of being stuck and it was causing a lot of impatience, sadness, and instead of coming to my Beloved with all that I was feeling I started adding things in my life to do so I could be distracted from the feelings inside me. I know- right, this is the first thing that we learn when we come to RMI, and even knowing the truth it was like I wasn’t able to sit still, to talk to Him, and the worst to hear from Him!!!

We are so blessed that He never leaves or forsakes us, never!!! And He is always patient, He kindly showed me my sins, and how I was adding things that could give me just temporary satisfaction, instead of drinking from the living water. After repenting, He began cleaning me and it was amazing how I was able to listen to Him and be attentive to the dreams He was giving me and what He was speaking to me through His word.

I always had a very good relationship with my FH’s (former husband) family, after my divorce, I spent more than a year without any contact with any of them, and then the Lord had His appointed time to make this happen, and you can read it more in my #Sara. One of the people that I am most in contact with is my ex-Sister in law, but our conversation is not frequent, and most of the time is because I reach her to know how she is doing, she is always loving and sweet. But I began to feel tired, and I brought this issue to Him, I shared my heart letting Him know that I did not like pursuing people, I didn’t want to be the one to always initiate a conversation, I want to know that she also cares about me. He kindly reminded me that He never let go of pursuing me and then, I felt in my heart that I should be more patient with her, but I still said to Him that this time I would not reach her.

It didn’t take many days, and while I was with Him on my Sunday, I received a message from her and I was shocked and impressed, but so grateful that He touched her heart!!! The weeks after her message I began to have dreams about her, and I believed it was from Him, so I was praying more for her, and the next day after my dream, while I was getting ready for my day I received a call from her. I confess that at that time in the morning I thought that she was calling to say that someone had passed away. I answered very unsure and my first question was if everything was okay. She laughed and said that everything and everybody was okay, but she needed my help. That was the second shock of the day, it took me 5 seconds but I was able to list all the possible things that she needed my help with and was not successful. She is a surgeon and she had a Russian patient that could not understand Turkish or English, so she called me to be a translator. I was able to quickly help her and she thanked me, she needed to run since the case of her patient was urgent.

It was just after the call when I was thanking the Lord for being a help to her that the thought struck me.

Why did she call me and not her brother my former husband who also speaks Russian? Well maybe she did and he didn’t answer or maybe she just called me first, in any case, I know that it was my Beloved answering my prayers and letting me know that He is working even when He is silent!!

Ladies, I just want to encourage you to always bring everything to Him, to open your heart, and share the things you have trouble with. Don’t try to numb the feelings inside of you with other things, but make sure to also lay it down and give to Him, He will bring joy and His comforting word and love.

"Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD." Psalm 27:14

"The LORD is gracious and merciful; slow to anger and great in lovingkindness." Psalm 145:8

~ Sara in Turkey
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