Physically Sick at the Possibility

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♕ Today's Promise: "May The God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13

~ Ruby in California

☊ PRAISE Audio

I finally became His Bride! I finally let go and gave it all to My Love. My will is finally, truly His Will. I have let go of my EH (earthly husband) and of restoration. Whatever the Will of My Love is I am willing to endure it because I only want to stay together with Him forever.

Just a few short weeks ago I made myself physically sick at the possibility of my EH bringing the OW (other woman) to our sons football game. This time when he emailed me actually stating that he may show up with her I was not sick, I was at peace with it. As long as I was with My Love, I was willing to go through anything. I was willing to greet them with a smile and kind words. I am willing to do anything to be with Him. I humbled myself before Him and asked that He use me so I may show His love and forgiveness to others.

Later that day I got on my knees and asked Him why I was responding so differently this time. Something happened. Something was different in me. But what? I didn’t know what I did to have such peace, love and forgiveness. I did nothing different than what I had been doing with Him already. I didn’t understand why. There was no crying out to Him with anxiety or fear. There was no breakdown or breakthrough. I asked him for the wisdom to understand, what did I do to receive this. He said—Nothing, because His Grace is free, His Peace is free and His Forgiveness is free. We cannot earn it. We just need to keep on loving Him and trusting Him and wait on Him everyday, every minute, and He will do it, in His perfect time.

Did you catch that Ladies? I did!! He said HE WILL DO IT!! Not Us!! I did nothing but kept loving Him deeply as I did every day, I gave it to Him and trusted Him, seeking His face just to be closer to Him, not asking Him to do anything but His Will for me.

Then the tears came down. This was such wisdom and understanding that He gave to me and I thanked Him and praised Him. He is so good to me even when I didn’t earn it or don’t deserve it. This was a totally different kind of gratitude because this was a different kind of gift. I felt I received the gifts of the Holy Spirit.

So, that night EH (earthly husband) called me on his way to the game and said he would be a little late and asked me where I was sitting. He came alone and sat with me and our girls. My Faithful and Loving Husband gives me more than I can imagine though. After the game EH asked me where we were going. I said home. He asked us to meet him at a nearby restaurant to go eat with him. Not only did He not bring the OW (other woman), he also stayed late and took us all to eat. This is highly unusual. My Love is so good and so faithful to me. He is our Protector.

The intimacy I feel with My True Love is beyond amazing. Words cannot describe it. I just know that I am willing to do anything just to stay with My True Love forever. He is the Only One I want, the Only one I need and the Only One I live for. I am His and He is mine. 💗

P.S. today EH (earthly husband) sent me a copy of his email to his attorney trying to find out about the court date and zoom meeting between his attorney, EH and myself. But all I did was say to My Love that I know He has this all under His control and I don’t have to deal with any of it. He is my Protector and Provider. He can change things before anything even happens or He can let it happen because it’s His Will and His Plan. Either way I am willing to do anything and sign anything just to stay with Him. I don’t care what I will get or don’t get. I just want My HH’s (Heavenly Husband) Will to be done and to stay in love with Him forever.

"May The God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13

"So that from the rising of the sun to the place of its setting, men may know there is none beside me. I Am The Lord and there is no other! I form the light and create darkness. I bring prosperity and create disaster. I, The Lord, do all these things." Isaiah 45:6-7

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