Yesterday my EH invited me to spend my PIL’s birthday with them. I was hesitant at first but since the Lord called me to submit, i agreed.
After dinner, my EH asked me to take a walk with him and i prayed to my Love to deliver me and guide me. He asked me how i was doing, talk about the baby and he mentioned that there was something different about the way i look. Having this perfect time, i told him “its because of the Lord, he is healing me and is taking out the bitterness and anger i have inside me. I couldn’t do it myself.” I also saw this moment as a way of asking for forgiveness from him for all the pain that i caused him. I promised him i will never let anyone slander him and i would shield my son from it so that he may come to know his father the way i used to know him and how God sees him. When I looked I saw tears falling from his eyes, and he kissed my temple and told me he will always be there for me.
That night we slept beside each other and he asked if he can hug my tummy so he can feel the baby, i saw tears in his eyes again as my baby suddenly kicked so hard and he really felt it.
The following day, of course, the trials came. He was back to his usual sneaking, making phone calls and texting his OW when he confronted me about an incident involving his OW that i had no idea about. Thankfully, PTL, my Beloved did not put me to shame and he delivered me. Also, my mom called me to tell me how disappointed she was that i spent time with my EH and his family and not having time for my own family, i just told her how sorry i am if hurt her. And told her that this is what the Lord is leading me to do.
I pray to my Love to also heal my relationship with my family as i just walk through this journey alone with my HH.
“For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.” Phil. 1:6 NIV
~ Cherie in Manila
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