♕ Today's Promise: "Humble yourselves, then, under the mighty hand of God, so that he may exalt you when it was time." 1 Peter 5:6
From my own experience I can say that it is true that restoration is much more complicated than waiting! So it is better that we are well grounded before it is time that HE returns us to our earthly husband!!
What my Heavenly Husband has guided me to share is that I have been through this crisis that Erin warned me when I read "Marriage, restored? Now what?" Yes, the time has come when my earthly husband has become cold again and in which I have the opportunity to give unconditional love, and I could say that perhaps it's the second time I failed this test...I confess that one of my main mistakes have been that I stopped sharing romantic moments with my Heavenly Husband (such as going alone to drink coffee) and on the other hand I didn't nurture my spirit as Erin instructs us, reading a lesson from the Wise Woman book weekly. This led to the crisis that inevitably had to happen for my Heavenly Husband to get my attention.
I knew that the atmosphere between earthly husband and I was somewhat tense, but I didn't imagine it was enough for him. Apparently we were fine, until he received bad advice from a "follower of Christ." Suddenly, he became cold and in a couple of days my Heavenly Husband told my heart that he would talk to me about divorce, so he didn't take me by surprise that same afternoon when he mentioned it...to which I replied yes it was what he wanted and made him happy I wouldn't hinder his path.
My Heavenly Husband reminded me of what I said to my earthly husband during our conversation because...The mouth speaks of the abundance of the heart. Matthew 12:34 - then I realized that I had covered the lack of forgiveness in my heart, the fleeting memories of what still hurt me and that I did not treat but instead put them aside, well, that garbage, I didn't know was still there. It's for this reason that I couldn't show him unconditional love, because my heart isn't totally pure.
I honestly got to embrace the idea of divorce and I even imagined a new wedding...because of the attitude of my earthly husband I thought that I wouldn't give in, that I was very serious, but my Heavenly Husband has the last word, my earthly husband asked me to I handed him some of his belongings, so we met a day before he returned to the other country and in the middle of the conversation I noticed that he persuaded me to stop him somehow, but I still agreed with him.
He left and sent me a letter by email, telling me that he loved me and that he had hoped that in those days that we were separated (after mentioning the divorce) I would look for him and propose a solution, so I felt very proud and thought that I didn't have to do it and humiliate myself in front of his family when I went looking for him.
But that pride was the signal that I should do it...it came to my heart: Humble yourselves, then, under the mighty hand of God, so that he may exalt you when it was time 1 Peter 5:6, I knew I should do what it cost to my flesh and then I went to his house and humbled myself by letting his extended family see me come to find an agreement with him. My earthly husband opened the door with happiness and his eyes shone because he didn't think I would and that same night we reconciled.
I cannot say that my heart has been completely healed, because Heavenly Husband continues to cause friction with my earthly husband that shows me the resentment that still exists in my heart. However, I praise my sweet Heavenly Husband because with all the wrong things I have done, nesting bad thoughts, He showed me His goodness. This does not mean that I want to continue like this and I pray that my Heavenly Husband will scrutinize and cleanse my heart of all the garbage that remains and that I have covered.
Beloved, this teaches me that it is very important to focus on our hearts being pure because He said: “Thus saith the Lord God; In the day that I shall have cleansed you from all your iniquities I will also cause you to dwell in the cities, and the wastes shall be built. Ezekiel 36:33
The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? I, the Lord, search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings. Jeremiah 17:9-10 KJV
“Thus saith the Lord God; In the day that I shall have cleansed you from all your iniquities I will also cause you to dwell in the cities, and the wastes shall be built." Ezekiel 36:33 NLV
"The mouth speaks of the abundance of the heart." Matthew 12:34 NIV