We’re Not Giving Up

“So we’re not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. (2 Corinthians 4:17-18 Message)

My faith about 1 month ago got “hit”. Many of you know that my FH married last year, and on what was his birthday, I heard from a dear friend that they were going to be parents. At the end of our marriage, I was told he did not have “any” desire to be a father. My heart was so broken, as I have/had desired to be a mom. I was knocked down and was bed-ridden for 24 hours which seemed like days after I heard the “news”. I pleaded and cried so many tears. I asked why and pleaded for Him to show Himself in this “situation”. My emotions were very raw, but He started applying the scab and healing me. As I awoke the following day after the news, I felt Him covering me with His grace and unconditional love. This month I haven’t had any emotions attached to this anymore, not even when I had to throw a baby shower for my cousin a week after I heard the news!! Honestly, I haven’t felt this at peace, “free” and filled with joy since my RJ has started!!!

My HH has shown His love to me in so many ways this month; a beautiful sunrise on a day I wasn’t supposed to have to work. He blessed me with a free McDonald’s breakfast when I barely had any money (a man paid ahead of me in the drive-thru). He blessed me with a snow blower from my parents. He allowed my parents to come to my house and help me redo my wood floors. He blessed me through my best friend with a free dinner. Each devotion I read this month has been jumping off the page at me and I feel like devouring more of His words!! All of these things happened this month!!!

One of the best things was HE gave me a new Love song, just for Him and me:) I read in a devotion today “Joy sometimes needs pain to give it birth”. I believe this!! I am in such awe of how far He has brought me even in one month. I feel free from so much that has burdened me for so long!!

I cannot thank my Sweet love enough for allowing me this journey and allowing me sorrow! I know that my sorrow will only turn to JOY!!!

“In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.” (1 Peter 1:6-7 NIV)

The trials lead to joy and more faith in believing in His Will for our lives!! I love this: NOT my pain proves God absence BUT my pain expands God’s purpose!!

~ Leslie in Ohio