Oh, how difficult this principle is and I have to say that I praise the Lord for the teaching here and by His strength to walk in obedience. I think out of our human nature we want to defend ourselves and like in the Week 15 “Perchance” Living Lesson
it starts with the smallest of things. Coming here to RMI and learning His truth and the word I try to apply what I learn and it started with surrendering my life for Him. I want for others to see me the way I want to be seen, but lots of times this isn't the case. That is why at times I felt the need to defend myself and resist the evil. When I learned my identity was in Him and all that mattered what He thought of me, although difficult, I was able to release and submit to His calling for my life.
Learning how He feels about me, made me secure in Him and not in myself or what others say or do to me. We are carnal people, but that is why spending time with my HH and in His presence, so He can fill my spirit, is so important. It is also important to walk so very close to Him and listening to His voice rather than all that is around me.
I think the hardest time when I had to put this principle into practice is when it came against my restoration and ministry. I am head of the Spanish ministry and when I received an attack on my marriage restoration I wanted to crawl in a cave. Again I PTL for the teaching here because I was able to NOT fight back or say anything. I took it straight to my HH and every tear shed (and there was a lot) was His. My flesh wanted to defend myself, wanted to say and do something, but being so close to HIM I knew He was calling me to be still.
I mean, What could I possibly do??? if He is my defender and in control of everything. Then I fought with Him saying I didn't deserve this, in my own pride. I wanted to give up, no longer feel the pain, and do my own will thinking I knew what would be best for me. Oh how sad and wrong I was. Again, He brought me back with His love and comforted me. Showing me He was more than enough for me and I once again swallowed my pride, died to my "self" and surrendered my life to HIM. I adore Him and was willing to go through what He had for me so His will be done and be a testimony for His glory. He heals and restores!! again and again
Struggle with what I have shared? Pray with me: My Love, each day I know I have to die to my "self" and ask you to Live and shine in my life. Although trials sometimes hit hard, my trust is in You and I know you are in control. I have learned that my words or actions to try and change things are like filthy rags. I pray today to always guide and strengthen me to humble myself to you. To stay close to you so I am hearing Your voice and obedient to your will in my life. It is You who completes me and You are everything to me. You know that sometimes my pride gets in the way and I question why I have to go through some things, but ultimately Your ways are always higher than mine. Forgive me if I ever try to resist Your will in my life and think I know better than You.
Not that I have already obtained it or have already become perfect, but I press forward so that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus. Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching [pressing] forward to what lies ahead, I press on forward toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:12-14
Dear Bride, Reading these lessons WILL change your life. As you know the Lord right now, there is so much MORE, more to grow and learn. Take the time to open your heart and allow Jesus to come and show You His heart.