Hello brides… it has been a while I do not write a PR “Praise Report. Reading Cherie’s PR’s have encouraged me to write mine. For those who do not know me, my HH “Heavenly Husband” restored my marriage since April, 2018. But you know what, I got angry with HIM because the relationship with my EH “earthly husband” was not as I expected. Can you believe it? I got so angry that I died. Yes, I died. Because I didn’t want to spend time with Him. Because I stopped doing my lessons. Because I stopped believing in His promises. Because my EH started to hate me again. Till the point that I was the one that wanted to leave my EH.
I began to think that all this was a mistake. That my marriage was a mistake, that the only way of being close to Him was without my EH. I had lots of battles in my mind. That in moments I thought I would go crazy. My Beloved forgive me for not keeping my eyes on YOU! My source of life! Without You I simply die!
My Beloved in His mercy showed me that I wasted my time thinking about things that were part of the past. That I needed to move on. That I needed to forgive. Because I was waiting for my EH to apologize for all that I had suffered when we were separated. But he never did it…. In fact he is still confused with our marriage and his life… he is not sure about anything. So I never understood why we had to live together again… why he wants to live with me if he doesn’t want to be with me?
It is hard for me to keep trusting…. to be happy… How am I only happy with YOU? Then I realized that it is impossible to be happy if I do not spend time with HIM. I was dying without noticing it. But I’m done. I got bored with myself. I need to change. A new year, a new opportunity.
My HH has showed me that I did my courses very fast just wanting to know the principles to correct my mistakes and to have a restored marriage. But now it is the time of knowing HIM. This time I have a notebook and will start doing the courses again… but very slow… I started to translate again….now I am with the book FACING DIVORCE….. it has helped me a lot to keep trusting and to see the mistakes that I am doing and to keep praying for those marriages around me that the enemy is destroying and that everybody thinks that there is no hope for them. Some of these marriages are Christian and others not. But if they do not believe that God can restore their marriages, I do believe that God can do it. “Oh, how I hate to see families fall apart and become just another statistic. I suppose there was no way to really help this precious couple “through” you. It really does take the effort of one of the persons involved to see a change. However, prayer, really sold out prayer, can totally and radically change even the most hopeless situations.
What spoke to me was Matthew 17:20 And this part taken from the RYM talked directly to me “We tell those that are hoping for restoration not to look for it, because it is a faith walk. EH is not remorseful even after returning home and this is common. The trial is not over once the “other person” is out of the picture or the spouse is home. The “refining” fire stays hot until the one hoping for restoration is totally transformed.”
The refining fire is so hot for me that I want to run away, I feel it is unfair, it hurts me so much. I have failed many times…. I want to give up…. But there is a strength inside of me that gives me the courage to continue believing. Believing that I will learn to LOVE HIM and that I will learn to be HIS and that He will be MINE!!! And I do not know how much I will be in the refining fire but if the product of this will be that I will love Him with all my heart….it is totally worth it.
John 15:5-7 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.
Never give up praying.
James 5:16 “The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much”.
This part encouraged me to keep praying for my relatives. I will see His glory I am sure of that.