In the beginning of my journey I couldn’t understand how I could NOT want restoration but if it be in His Will then I would be obedient to Him and accept His Will for my life as so many Brides wrote about in their testimonies. I only knew how to pray for things that I wanted and pray against things I didn’t want. But now I am in this exact place as with the other Brides where I only want the Perfect Will of My Love for me. I don’t necessarily want restoration but if it is My HH’s will then I will accept whatever he has planned for me. The most important thing to me is that His will be done for me. That is all my heart wants now. This is how I live my life now.
Just like how I don’t necessarily want to see or be around the OW or have her in my or my children’s lives but if it’s My Love’s Will so be it, let it be done to me. In the same way I feel about restoration. I do not want restoration but if it be His Will let it be done. Because I only want His Will to be done, not mine, not EH, not OW or anyone else’s, only the Will of My HH.
But My HH always calls me to go deeper and I LOVE that about Him. Every one of us all have this call to constantly be going deeper in our lives with Him.
When my first reaction of the flesh hits, my heart beats fast and I sometimes can’t believe what EH is suggesting (to bring OW along with him to our sons sports match and help me with some things at the school), I go straight to My HH because I am a sinner by nature, I am human. My first reaction may be a fleshly reaction but we CHOOSE to see all by faith not by sight, to walk in the spirit and not the flesh because what is of the flesh is against the spirit and what is against the spirit is against the flesh so I must CHOOSE to walk in the spirit.
If we ask Him to let us see things through His eyes, He is faithful. He immediately took it off my heart, His yoke is easy and His burden is light. I may not know why right now or if this will actually happen but if it does I know it is His Perfect Will and His Will is my will. He says “Trust Me” and I do, I completely do. He also tells me “I Will Be With You” and I know My Love does not lie to me, I believe every single word He says.
So Dear Brides don’t feel bad that your first reaction is not the perfect one. It doesn’t mean we don’t love or trust our HH as much as we thought. It doesn’t mean He is not first. It doesn’t mean we are bad or we have failed. We will always be tempted in the flesh by the enemy when we face things that we don’t want, but it’s what we CHOOSE to do that matters. When we choose to walk by faith and not by sight, when we choose to walk in the spirit and not in the flesh, when we choose His Will and not our own, when we choose to not entertain those feelings or temptations, THAT is what proves our love for Our HH. THAT is how we choose Him! Continue to choose Him and say yes to His Will and continue to give your heart to Him in every situation.
Each one of us is called to do something awesome, great, beautiful and wonderful. It’s so important for us to discover that, live for that and let that take us to places we thought we could never go.
The result is that the OW did show up but I knew that it was allowed by My HH and He would not leave me to shame. I was at TOTAL PEACE with it. I accepted her help and was able to remain the gentle spirit precious in the sight of My Love. I love when I can be obedient and pleasing to My True Love. He always overflows me with His love for me, especially when I have to be in the presence of the OW. Others had their opinions of her and said they had to walk away and they didn’t know how I could be so good about it. I just hope that everyone could see and feel the Love of The Lord through this.
I have been set free of this. Hallelujah!! \o/
I actually feel I could do this over and over again. I almost can’t wait til the next time that I can show My Love how much I love him, be so close to Him and have Him overflow my heart with so much Love, Peace and Forgiveness to give to others. My Love allows these things to do another good thing in me, to take me deeper with Him.
“She eats, wipes her mouth and says I have done nothing wrong.” The next day I feel a great sorrow for the OW, I even shed tears for her and feel compassion towards her. I truly pray for her salvation. She is living the life I used to live, in sin, away from Our HH, without Him, not knowing Him, not being with Him in His Presence, so far away, without His peace and love. That is not the life I want to live anymore or ever again and not the life I would want anyone to live, not even the OW.
My Love, I choose You, today and every day!! Thank You, for cleansing my heart and washing it clean, replacing it with Your love, compassion and forgiveness. You have given me the Grace to truly forgive the way You do, truly pray from my heart for her salvation and to have the love and compassion for all like You do. For this gift that You have given me that has set me free I am so happy and grateful and I give You all the praise. Whatever I have to go through in this world as long as You get the Glory from this. This is more than I could imagine I would ever be, with You, here in this state of perfect Peace, Love and Forgiveness.
Brides, what the enemy means for evil Our HH truly does turn it for good!! Be willing to walk through the fires with Him, He will never leave you, He will refine you and make you a new creation. He will cleanse your heart so He can fill it with more of His love and HIS light will shine brightly through it. 💖
Dear Brides, I understand that some of you may not understand this. As I mentioned, I didn’t understand it myself when I read other brides describing this. But when you are in a place together with The Love Of Your Heart and you can face anything that comes before you, this is where your heart will want to be, with Him, so deep hidden in Him. He will be all you want, all you need and all you live for and nothing else will matter. Things that used to hit you like a tone of bricks will be like a bit of dust that you can brush off your shoulder and your True Love will fill your heart overflowing with His true love for you 😊💖
Whatever I have to go through to get more of My True Love is so worth it. Nothing else can compare 💝😍