My sickness ended up in praise.

I became very ill, with the flu a few days ago. But it was divinely appointed.

The night before, I saw my Beloved work in me and through me in such a marvelous way, as is His way. He caused me to be able to genuinely smile in the midst of a strange situation, for those of you who missed my last praise, I came face to face with the Other person and My Beloved gave me a smile and then told my soul, see, I can cause you to never feel ashamed!

Ahh so beautiful. Anyways, so I went home that night, praying and praising Him for all things. I slept in perfect peace that night, dreaming of His scripture, just amazing really.

But when the flu hit me, I even felt His presence even then! I've been reading so many testimonies on here about feeling his presence andi never truly understood it. But the past few days, He has been drawing near to me, through these storms the darker they get they more I want to find him!!

Anyways, a dear friend came to encourage me and I shared with her how I would not be able to pick my little ones up and go to Bible study. Which meant that I would not see them for 3 whole days. I knew they would be upset, especially my 3 year old daughter, this has been especially hard for me. Me leaving her every night.

But I felt in my heart, that if God was doing this, He would use their tears for their good. And mine. (Increase of faith for me)

So to trust Him.

So, the next day I messaged my EH telling him I could not pick up the kids and why. (I have been sticking to a strict no messaging policy) Praise God!! But what surprised me, was that my husband told me how much the children missed me. (He never messages more than one liners, yet this time he continues for 10 plus minutes)

God showed me, that yes my little ones were indeed sad I didn't come, yet He used it to soften my EHs heart to tell me that.

My focus is on His mighty ability to turn all things for the good of those who love him. Even using my sickness to show me He is working and his hand cannot be turned.

Showing me that I really have no control and that all He expects from me is to praise Him trust Him and serve Him by loving All unconditionally. Even those who come against me. Giving me new opportunities to encourage women!

Opening my eyes to the things that I've missed, I don't want to miss any opportunities to give him glory!!! His word says that He will teach us wisdom in the secret heart and I am so excited for this.

It's an exciting wonderful thing to be His beloved and to have been called!

Praying for each and every one of you dear sisters that you may know the love He has for you!!