"And His name will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Eternal Father, Prince of Peace" Isaiah 9:6
Hello beautiful brides.
I was journaling and writing my love notes to my King, when I realized how much He has changed things.
I may have spoke on this before, but He reminded me this morning.
Two years ago, my marriage situation became too much for me to handle, hehe imagine that, and I turned to worldly ways to comfort myself. I began to run daily. Like 2-5 miles daily. Plus weight lifting. I began pursuing a "perfect body" and then at nighttime, I began taking medication every night.
I loved the feeling it gave me. I would lay in bed at night, imagining horrible scenarios in my mind. Dwelling on negative and painful things. Allowing anger and bitterness to seep into my heart. Listening to all the words from all the people I ran to for counsel. So at night, usually in bed alone, I would rather take that medication then lay in bed for hours.
Last night, in the midst of a fiery trial, I no longer turned to any comforts, but I opened up to the Psalms and Proverbs for the daily reading. Every time I do, my soul soars again. Hope begins to stir, joy begins to come over my heart. Peace washes over me once again.
I have a beautiful scripture playlist of the Psalms playing softly in the background as I sleep. I lay and speak to my Love about all my worries, tell Him what's on my heart, the pains and the hurts. He's even been putting it on my mind to pray in tongues as I lay in bed at night ☺️ So I drift off peacefully into my dreaming place, where He has been given me dreams almost nightly.
I've been able to write down my dreams and see how He is speaking into me and what His heart is for me in my life.
What a miracle. No more medication, no more worrying, imagining, only peace, comfort and joy. It's like my whole reality has changed because of His presence.
I've been out in a situation, where a crisis has hit my spouse and rather than help him because I am desperate for him to finally love me, respect me, treasure me, I can now operate from a place of love. Real love. Not my broken old love that was so full of expectations.
My family is in the middle of a crisis, but it doesn't feel like it.
A friend came over to use my washing machine while I was at work the other day and she sent me a text saying something like, your home is so peaceful I can feel it like it is tangible.
How amazing is this Husband that I can now say is mine?! Wherever He is there is peace, love and light. There is no darkness. And He lives, He is One with us who love Him!
May we each step into that understanding more and more, walking in that truth. Living from a place of spiritual rest. ❤️
This morning, what magnificent praise for our beloved. Every time I welcome someone into my home, they feel the tranquility of my house. The teenagers who come to take refuge in my home feel such serenity that they stay all day. I can hear them talking, screaming because their games are failing. I don’t say anything, but this little world is looking for shelter. However, it’s not me who provides this rest, it’s our darling.
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Oh that’s wonderful. I can only imagine how that must feel like a hug from God, a special gift that the kids are there and not somewhere else!,
Thank you, dear Rasa, for a long time (before my journey started) I could not sleep without medication, especially while I was working shifts and had to sleep during the day. It became a vicious cycle, having to take medication to sleep, then drink a lot of coffee to function when I was at work or at home. But my Beloved rescued me from working shifts and from needing medication to sleep. Now I fall asleep taking to my Beloved Lord, and if I do struggle to sleep, I switch on my audio bible and listen to the Psalms until I fall into peaceful sleep.