Hello beautiful brides. I have been withholding this praise, for one, I wanted to be discreet, but not so discreet that I fail to show the beauty in it.
About two months ago, my EH asked me to go back to work, and the next day I found work, a few hrs each week and also a precious family who loves the Lord, watched my two young children.
A few days after I got my job, my EH had to go away, with no employment, no way to get more employment and no way to visit his children.
I’m very grateful for the recent “mistakes” I made, which was yearning for my EH before he left, because he was coming around much more. I remember getting so frustrated with myself, but quickly turning to My Love, deciding to pursue only Him, and sorry for how quickly I began to yearn after another.
All of that happening before my EH went away set my heart up for even more freedom! He truly used it for my good, and quickly. It was as if my heart shot up like a sprout, next to His river of flowing water, roots even deeper in Him, desperate to grow closer to Him.
So, all of that happening before my EH went away, now that he is away, he was our source of provision the Lord has been using to pay all bills. Rent, utilities, food everything. Oh, and I recently got cut off from all my food stamps, and when that happened I knew the Lord was setting me up for a blessing!
While my EH has been away, the Lord has been so faithful in providing 3 months worth of rent. As well as money to get my son his birthday presents, and food for us all. Money to renew my tabs, pay off some of the debt I owed and even had money to purchase a few healthier alternatives for dental care. And warm winter clothes for my children!
I remember a time, I believed that my husband was our financial provider, I didn’t see past him, he was my sole focus, my sole worry and I didn’t understand how My LOVE is the one who provides all things.
Also, while my EH has been away, he’s been asking me to do a lot of errands and important court business on his behalf. To which I am so grateful I learned to do these things not to please him, but because he asked I do them, with a blessing to please my True Love.
I don’t have to worry about my children’s hearts not having their earthly father around, he may be gone for a year, but my Love has proven that He has been guarding their hearts. They’re not worried or fearful. They aren’t acting out in any way and they are full of life, kindness and joy and I know that’s because their heavenly father loves them so much.
I’m now free to ask my Love to simply love on my EH. Free from praying from a place of hurt, fear of the future, but simply because I want him to experience what I have with my First Love.
◄ John 10:10 ►
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the FULL.
New Living Translation
The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a RICH and SATISFYING life.