“Her husband Elkanah would say to her, “Hannah, why are you weeping? Why don’t you eat? Why are you downhearted? Don’t I mean more to you than ten sons?" 1S18
Dear ones, I want to share with you how special my Heavenly Husband has been with me this month. I am extremely grateful because he blessed me with a “flash” visit to my country to celebrate some special dates with my family, including the gender reveal of my sister’s second child who, praise be to my Beloved, is a Boy.
This event is a reason for praise for me because my Beloved has worked in my heart. I must confess that during my sister's previous pregnancy I felt more sad than happy for her, because I was wrapped up in my thoughts about my "frustrated" desire, and because I was thinking about myself, I did not rejoice as I would have liked for her happiness.
This was something I shared with my Beloved at that time, in the midst of all that feeling I hated it, because I was feeling bad because I saw that all the women and friends around me were being blessed with children but not me, I think this was envy. I was sincerely distressed, seeing that all the others were blessed and I was not. My Husband listened to me and healed my heart, I don't know exactly how He did it, I think He spoke to me so much and His promises and love have made me feel so full and loved by Him, without any need, He is definitely the one who satisfies me and who removes from me all the impure things that hurt me and that hurt my loved ones (by making me have a bad attitude with them).
I praise my sweet Husband because this second time my sister shared her pregnancy with me, He had been preparing me in a special period of fasting that I thought was about my health but He directed me to pray for the fruit of the womb, that day especially He spoke to my heart to make me understand that He loves me and is in control, when she mentioned it I felt really happy for her, there was no pain or envy, only joy. Only He could do it!!!
At the celebration we had a beautiful time, without sadness, without the “reign of my wounded self.” We celebrated and I was able to stop thinking about myself to give her attention and rejoice with her in her joy. Those kinds of details from my Husband are precious!! Who else but Him can make us feel full and satisfied in the midst of “lack”? Yes, only Him. He fills any emptiness in my heart. I can tell you that I no longer feel lacking and that I feel happy just the way I am because He is with me and is more than enough. With joy I can tell you:
—Yes darling, you are much better than 10 children!! 🥰💗
“Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.” R1215