"Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working." J516
I have to confess to you, Dear Brides, that I've back slidden. I started to become the contentious unpleasant woman again.
Things have been getting difficult for me. There's been difficulties with myself, my energy and time management. I've been so tired and weak. I haven't had time to do my work at home or cook proper meals. This left me feeling like a failure, unhappy and frustrated. I've had low patience and been unkind to my children. Although it's true they do need to do better with their chores and decisions, I still did not handle the problems with a kind and gentle spirit that is pleasing to my Lord.
I've been sarcastic and had a bad attitude regarding my FH (former husband) again. I know I hurt his feelings and let what he said or did get to my heart. I didn't react very kindly and I continued with a sarcastic and unforgiving attitude with him.
I've been volunteering in programs for my daughters sports and I have had no patience or kindness at times with parents and athletes. There had been alot of issues and drama this year, plus the people that I'm having to work with have been negative, not kind and angry with others and I also joined in and took on some of those behaviors and feelings towards others as well.
To top it off, I have not spent enough time with my Beloved Husband. I didn't put on the Armor Of God. I've been so tired and rushed to get to work with lack of enough sleep that I had been cutting our alone time in the morning very short and some morning we did not spend time alone together at all. Yet still, my Beloved has still gone with me throughout my day and blessed me, helping me with my tasks at work because He loves me still.
All this finally led to a big blow up at home between us all. My children and I exploded with emotions and anger. The enemy was hard at work feeding everyone with lies about each other and about ourselves. After it was all said and done, my Husband still comforted me and gave me peace immediately! He showed me how He sees everything and everyone, including myself. He reassured me that was lies from the enemy and showed me His truth.
There is much healing that still needs to take place but I believe in my Beloved Lord and Heavenly Husband, The Leader of this family. If I've learned nothing, I've learned that there is nothing He can't repair and heal. He is our Healer, our Redeemer and our Deliverer. His specialty is bringing dry bones to life, raising us from the ashes and building a new life, family and home on the rock. He healed me and I truly believe that He will bring healing to my children and to their earthley father too.
James 5:16
Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.
So I confess to you, Dear Brides, of my wrong doing, just like I confessed to my Beloved Lord and Heavenly Husband. I pray for the Lord to provide the opportunity for us all to confess to each other and reconcile. I pray for healing for my children and for their earthly father too. I turn from my wicked ways and seek Your face. I want to return to You, my Beloved and our intimacy we shared. I can't live without You. I thank You for healing me and forgiving me. I thank You for ridding me of the contentious woman and giving me a quiet and gentle spirit. I surrender to you once again and believe you will do it again. I believe you will do what you've done for me for my children and their Dad too. Don't turn Your Face from me. Don't take Your Holy Spirit from me. Wash me clean, white as snow. Thank You for Your loving kindness, unconditional love and forgiveness. Thank You for the loving and faithful Lord and Husband You are.
My dear Ruby,
It’s so wonderful to be able to open up here… For a while, I became that woman who would speak loudly, or act all soft when my husband came to see the children. But my Beloved led me to a day of fasting. I was so exhausted when my husband came home, and I had to confess to him that I had been acting like a “saintly hypocrite.” I asked for his forgiveness, and I knew it was my Beloved who had led me to do so calmly, without adding anything false.
I thank Him, because as Erin said in the series “How to Be Blessed This Year,” we need to fast twice a week to kill this old woman nature. 🙏
May God continue to transform us and guide us on His path.
Thank you so much for sharing Dear Ruby.
I can relate so much to you. My journey has been similar, sometimes I also contentious, specially with the children lately. And still sometimes with E.H.
I am praying for God to truly change me, and allow me to see what I have been doing wrong. I also have been more busier than ever, asking God’s grace to manage better my time, and trust Him, with it. It is all a learning jouney, but sometimes I really go down just thinking that I am going back to my old ways again. But we must belived that the work that He began in us, He will accomplish it. And He wants us to believe in that. It is also a problem when we don’t believe that He is going to do it through us.
I m Glad that you belive and that you have Hope, and that You could see is loving care through it all, that is encouraging. Thank you.
And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ. Philipians 1:6
Oh dear precious Ruby thank you so much for being so open and brave in confessing your sins. l have been struggling with a lot of the things you mentioned especially spending time with my Beloved too and just like you l have noticed l am not a very happy person when l don’t spend enough time with HIM.
He also showed me that when l don’t have a LOT of time for Him l rush thru my prayer requests asking Him for everything and telling Him my concerns but no intimate time just enjoying Him and His presence 😔 l don’t spend time just telling Him how wonderful He is and basking in His love for me.. no longer His bride…
But you know what? its ok because He already knows and l think He longs for time with us as much as we long for time with Him.
This morning He woke me up earlier to spend that time with Him and spoke these truths to me and l am so grateful 💗
l know that He will help you make time for the 2 of you and that your relationship will grow so much stronger… and l know you will come share with us 🤗
Thank you so much for sharing this with us today and I am encouraged. I too have had times this week when I catch myself being very unki d to my children and this is such a beautiful reminder that He is still here with us, quick to forgive and lead us in the right right. ❣️❣️
This confession is so familiar to me. I have been a contentious wife for many years, my behavior caused a lot of conflict in my family. Because of my behavior, my marriage ended in divorce. The enemy attacks us terribly because he knows what our Heavenly Husband’s plan is. The enemy does everything he can to make sure that we fall back and do not receive the abundant life that our Heavenly Husband wants to give us.
Our Heavenly Husband is so wonderful and good, He is always ready to forgive our sins and draw us to Him. It is exactly as you write: “He is our Healer, our Redeemer and our Deliverer. His specialty is to bring dry bones to life, to raise us from the ashes and build a new life, family and home on the rock.”