He Healed Me from My Childhood Emotional Pains

“He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.”Psa 91:4 (NIV)

I just want to share this song which has been my all time favourite ever since I watched the movie “Tarzan”.

I was really young back then. This song really had a great impact in me. I never really dedicated it to anyone. I never found it as a “romantic love song”. I saw it as a mother and child song, since the part of the movie this came out was when Tarzan was being taken care of a female gorilla.

So today, My Love had me remember this song. So I looked it up, played it and read the lyrics to check if it can be “our song”.

I ended up crying, like really crying bucket of tears.

He revealed to me the pain I had from my childhood. I grew up in a happy Christ centered family. My Dad was a Senior Pastor. I was loved and adored being the youngest child. But, one thing I had trouble with is “fear”. I was a kid who grew up being afraid of everything! I can’t sleep alone in my room even if I was already in my 20s! That’s how afraid I was!

The pain I mentioned from the previous paragraph is that, whenever I was afraid, instead of me being comforted by my Mom or Dad. They scold me… They’ll tell why am I being afraid, that I have Jesus. That I have nothing to be afraid of. If I cry, they don’t let me cry. They don’t like it when I cry.

They’re good parents, don’t get me wrong. It’s just that since I was a Christian, and I have Jesus in my heart, I should not fear. Yes that’s true, but I never really saw Him as my “Heavenly Father”. I did not have that kind of relationship with Him.

Growing up I always wanted to be protected. To feel that kind of protection, like this song is about. I never felt that. I looked for it in my past relationships but none of them made me feel safe and secured. Even my own EH.

He revealed to me today that though I missed that from my childhood, now I have Him and I’m able to experience it from Him! Now I am no longer afraid, I can sleep alone. I can kill bugs on my own! I have someone I can cry my heart out to. I finally feel safe and secured because I have Him. He protects me! Today He healed me from my childhood emotional pains!

You’ll Be in My Heart

(Jesus)
Come stop the crying, it′ll be alright
Just take my hand, hold it tight
I will protect you from all around you
I will be here, don’t you cry

For one so small, you seem so strong
My arms will hold you, keep you safe and warm
This bond between us can′t be broken
I will be here, don’t you cry

‘Cause you′ll be in my heart
Yes, you′ll be in my heart
From this day on, now and forevermore (oh)
Yes, you’ll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You′ll be here in my heart always

(Bride)
Why can’t they understand the way we feel?
They just don′t trust what they can’t explain
I know we′re different, but deep inside us
We’re not that different at all (we’re not that different at all)

And you′ll be in my heart (oh)
Yes, you′ll be in my heart
From this day on, now and forevermore (oh)

(Jesus)
Don’t listen to them, ′cause what do they know?
We need each other to have and to hold
They’ll see in time, I know
When destiny calls you, you must be strong
I may not be with you, but you got to hold on (I see this part as – I got to hold on to my faith, He might be silent for some time)
They′ll see in time, I know
Show them together

(Bride)
‘Cause you′ll be in my heart
Yes, you’ll be in my heart
From this day on, now and forevermore (oh)
You’ll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You′ll be here in my heart always
Always

(Jesus)
Just look over your shoulder (I′ll be with you)
Just look over your shoulder (I’ll be there for you always)
(Always) just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
I′ll be there always