~ Brittany in Tennessee sadly fell into a deep pit, leaving behind a wake of destruction—due to failing to flee immorality. 1 Corinthians 6:18 says to “Flee immorality” “For the harlot is a deep pit, and an adulterous woman is a narrow well. She lurks as a robber, and increases the faithless among man” (Proverbs 23:28) and what will happen if you become involved with a married man.
From Brittany:
My sin of adultery may come and has come a shock to a lot of you as it has those closest to me. I want to publicly apologize for what I did and most of all for not being as transparent as I should’ve been. There is so much to share but for now only what He leads me to.
I’ve been gone and during my time off I’ve had time to SG about a lot and to most of all feel the full effects of my sin. To be honest when I first confessed to Erin I was just doing it out of obedience not because I really felt I was in the wrong, I blamed others, made excuses and time and time again overlooked what I knew was wrong. I was so accustomed to my lifestyle that I wasn’t willing to move away from this OM even though I had the warning signs. I wasn’t sorry for what I did just as the verse says the adulterous woman wipes her mouth and says I’ve done nothing wrong.
My one sin of being friends with a man simply led into many many more sins the next worse than the first. I allowed myself to live in the flesh because I didn’t want to fast any more or thought I didn’t need to but the truth is that if I would’ve then my spirit would overruled my flesh.
I’ve moved states away from the OM roughly 2 months ago and since then I’ve finally had my eyes ripped open to how wrong I was. It wasn’t til I removed myself from it that I was able to see the full picture. I’m honestly disgusted and revolted by the woman I was even more so than when I found out I was the contentious women in my marriage.
I live daily battling the thoughts, my flesh, my emotions and it took my losing everything such as job, friends, and possessions to get my attention. He had to remove it all and have those closest to me turning on me so that I was alone with Him to see I am simply to blame. My excuses were just a cover up, my lies were out of fear and my confession was just for selfish reasons.
I can say that the adultery I found myself in was and is not worth it. It’s almost like the woman He changed me into was washed away in a matter of seconds and now I’m starting all over trying to find myself in Him again. This sin was harder going through then having my EH removed from me, harder than the divorce I was called to walk through and harder than having my heart broken by so many.
It seemed okay while I was in it but that’s only because I created the vision in my mind of how it was okay and reasoned with Him when He told me it wasn’t. I left what He said as that and threw it away each time He warned me. I was so lost and confused that I couldn’t hear Him clearly, I wasn’t sure if it was Him or the enemy which now we all know who it was.
I’m sorry to each of you for the lies I gave you and the picture of the perfect person I had you believing. But most of all in sorry to Him for basically spitting in His face and telling Him He wasn’t good enough for me so I found my own way.
I just really want to share that it’s not worth it. Being friends with a man, any man, is not worth the possibility of falling into adultery. You may think it’ll never happen to me, I know the truth and I could never do such a thing but that’s what I thought too which was rooted in my pride. It can happen to anyone including the most unexpected people.
Thankfully many of our ministers have heeded this principle, regarding fleeing, one is Amalia.
“The Lord is our Protector”
Right before Christmas one of my very close friend called me and told me that in her workplace there is somebody who is chasing her and she was afraid she will not be brave enough to overcome the temptation. (She is also seeking the Lord to become her Husband and Father for her son).
She asked me what to do.
The old me would suggest that she should stay strong and pray for strength to overcome. The new me wanted to say that i can not give her any answers because i don’t know, she should ask God since He knows the best.
But then immediately one lesson from Erin came to my mind and it was like a light in my head.
“Flee from sexual immorality.” 1 Corinthians 6:18 NIV
Flee means run away from this situation.
But it has completely different meaning in Slovak version. In Slovak it means more to be careful, watch out.
So i told her everything what i remembered from this lesson, how Erin was advising the young woman to run, even to another state, because this is the only time we have to run, run away from the sexual immorality.
She said, she will do it immediately even though she didn’t know what else to do, didn’t have a job at hand and was living with her parents, so she knew they will be upset if she gives up on her job so easily.
But both of us knew, that the Lord will not leave her alone. If she is doing the right thing, He will provide. And you know what???
He is so amazing!!!
Next day she called me and told me that she left the job but she immediately got an offer to work in nursery where her son was placed while she went to work.
Isn’t He wonderful?
Not just that He protected her, but He also arranged things to avoid strife in her family and plus he allowed her to spend more time with her son, actually to be with her son all day long.
The Lord reminded me this story now, when i am back in California and i don’t have anybody around.
Before when I was here, me and my EH used to have one friend, he is a boy and he was so close to my heart like my brother. The three of us used to meet almost daily, because he was best friend of my EH but because of our separation he blamed my EH and stayed away from him for all this time.
When he knew i am back he came to visit (while my EH was home), than he said he will come back more often, but it never happen.
Nobody understand this. My parents and other friends from my country know him very well and know that he is the only one around so they always ask if he visited me. I say no.
When i asked the Lord why? He reminded me this lesson again. He told me that He is protecting me. Only He knows my heart and my wounds which has to be healed in complete quietness, so He doesn’t allow anybody to come closer to me. And also reminded me that I should not have a friend who is boy without the presence of my EH.
He is wonderful. Before i would cry that i have nobody for me, i have no one to talk, no one to go out for cup of coffee, but now as soon as this thoughts enter my mind, He stops it immediately, because He is my EVERYTHING and i don’t need anybody.
He is the best listener, we can communicate through our eyes, gestures, He understands me perfectly. There is no human being who can compare to my only Beloved and sweet Jesus.
Oh, how i love Him.
“My beloved is mine and I am His.” Song of Solomon 2:16 NIV
There is no better place where to be, no better person who to spend the time with. My Beloved is victorious over everybody.
I have to admit that when I came here I again was looking at Him only as my Savior and begging Him to save me, but not anymore. I enjoy our communion in the middle of raging storm. He wins my heart daily.
~ Natasha
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