Last month one of my best friends got married and when I got the invite I told my EW. This was hard for me because since I knew she was getting married I started praying for my HH make things happen and "allow" my EH to go with me.
Well, since the time I asked till the very day I prayed, but the first thing I prayed was for my HH do his will. Our kids were to go to my mom's a day before, everything was planned out, not for my eh to go with me, but for me to have the time to have a nice time at the wedding.
The day arrived and my eh simply saw me getting ready and he just grabbed his things to go to the gym and said to me, be careful. I saw his struggle, I could see how hard it was for him to not go with me, but he simply decided not to go.
I would love to tell you that in that moment on I was happy and rejoiced, but no, I started crying not wanting to go. When I finally arrived at the wedding I stayed in the car until my friend arrived and went in together. I knew I was going to see people that would ask for my eh, but people who weren't meant to see me alone simply didn't went to the wedding PTL, and at first nobody asked about my eh (when I was the most vulnerable). After that I had an amazing time, and when finally I was so full of my Hh's love, my friend, sisters and other people asked about my eh but I was fine.
All of this was happening on one side, on the other side my mom was receiving a call from my eh to tell her he was going to go see the kids. He got to the house, took the kids to dinner and returned them back to my mom's. He has never done something like this, but both our mom and I felt like he felt lonely and he simply decided to go see the kids.
When my mom told me this I cannot deny that at first I was confused and worried, but then I simply Praised my HH for turning my eh's heart back to his kids.
The next day, when I went to pick the kids up they told me about this and when I asked them if they were happy about that, one of the twins told me that he had to find a place alone because he wanted to cry of happiness, and the other twin simply said "mommy I just told God thank you because He was working on our dad". In that moment I knew that it wasn't about me, I did not care if I cried that day, if I felt my heart broken, I knew that the plans my HH had were so different from mine, and He wanted my eh with his kids. They had been so good that you think they don't miss their dad, but they do miss him, and this, what my Hh did was to make our kids happy.
The phone calls have continued, my eh calls them to see how they are PTL.
I asked and prayed for the Lord to help me die to self and think of others like my kids before just thinking of me and now I know that He is faithful and is doing it. It hurts a lot, but not everything is about me, He is healing and restoring a father and sons and daughter relationship and I know He will restore mine as well once I stop thinking of myself first.
Malachi 4:6 He will restore the hearts of the fathers to their children and the hearts of the children to their fathers, so that I will not come and smite the land with a curse.”
John 12:24-26 Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit. He who loves his life loses it, and he who hates his life in this world will keep it to life eternal. If anyone serves Me, he must follow Me; and where I am, there My servant will be also; if anyone serves Me, the Father will honor him.
Luke 9:24 For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake, he is the one who will save it.
~ Delilah in Belice
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