I wasn’t sure if I should write this Praise Report now or wait until the relationship with my dad is fully restored. I used to tell myself that if God could restore my marriage that He would do the impossible and restore the relationship with my dad.
There was a time I used to think that my dad could never change, that he could never be a grandfather to my kids. That he could never have tender feelings toward me as his daughter.
On Saturday morning I woke up and out-of-the-blue decided to start doing the Salvation Stories course. I decided that I needed the encouragement, an extra boost and I knew I would find the scriptures I needed and encouragement here that I needed to believe the Lord for the Salvation of my whole family.
For many years, since I was in my teens before my parent’s divorce, the relationship with my dad has been painful for me. My younger brother died of tuberculosis and at his funeral, I tried approaching my dad to greet him and make things right with him but it didn’t go too well. He accused me of something I can’t even remember and since then the ache in my heart for my dad grew deeper. I could write about many other incidences that happened which increased my heartache for my dad and tell you about so many things that have happened in our family causing so much hurt. But I am writing a Praise Report to give my Beloved Praise because He is working in this “impossible” situation. He has started to turn the situation and heartache around and I believe that He is not done!! He has only started!
I received a message from my sister asking for my banking details and laughingly I sent her a message back asking if she had become a billionaire? Lol! She said No my dad had asked for my banking details as he wanted to deposit money for my 2 kids??!! What??!! This was such amazing news for me because over and over I wanted to call my dad to just say hello and ask him how he is.
But to tell you the truth I have been scared, so scared to call him because I have been scared of how his words could hurt me. I spoke to my Beloved about it and made a decision to surrender my dad and not do anything; this is something I learnt in Chapter 10 of the Finding the Abundant Life Course. That is why I am so grateful to this ministry and ALL its teachings. I have learnt so much and received so much knowledge that I am applying to my daily life and in every situation that I feel that I am living a life of victory, an Abundant Life!
It is so important to not rush through a lesson and to never give up. My sister says that in my dad’s drunken state that he was crying asking for my details. My Beloved did this; he turned my dad’s heart! I told my sister that I could not accept this money, that all I wanted was a relationship with my dad. But she said the monies were for my kids. Then we both realized at the same time that if I took the money from my dad it could be an opening for me to talk to my dad by being grateful and thanking Him for the money.
My Beloved is so AWESOME and AMAZING!! Only He can do the IMPOSSIBLE!! Looking back I am glad for all that I learnt here because I was taught to STOP doing things in my own strength. To be agreeable. I was taught that my HH loves me and delights in me and wants to do these amazingly special things in my life because He ADORES me and that the more I speak to Him, love Him, believe His word and wait for His promises the more He blesses me. This morning I woke up thinking that He is my HERO my KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR who gallops on His white horse. No, not to take me away from all my troubles but to heal and restore every area of my life. To save every member of my family and to give me the life He died to give me. A life of joy, peace, and prosperity!
John 15:5 KJV “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.”
Without Him, I can do nothing. So I can surrender that that He will do what is best for me, in fact beyond anything I could think or dream of!
Isaiah 30:18 KJV “Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!”
He LONGS to shower you and me with His love and blessings and heal and restore!
2 Corinthians 3:18 KJV “But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit.”
We will move from Glory to Glory as we believe and trust in Him more and more wonderful things start to happen! Don’t stay the same, begin to experience more and more of His blessings in your life.
“Better for Me Then, than Now”
Marriage Evaluation Team Minister