“Her husband Elkanah would say to her, “Hannah, why are you weeping? Why don’t you eat? Why are you downhearted? Don’t I mean more to you than ten sons?" 1S18
Dear ones, I want to share with you how special my Heavenly Husband has been with me this month. I am extremely grateful because he blessed me with a “flash” visit to my country to celebrate some special dates with my family, including the gender reveal of my sister’s second child who, praise be to my Beloved, is a Boy.
This event is a reason for praise for me because my Beloved has worked in my heart. I must confess that during my sister's previous pregnancy I felt more sad than happy for her, because I was wrapped up in my thoughts about my "frustrated" desire, and because I was thinking about myself, I did not rejoice as I would have liked for her happiness.
This was something I shared with my Beloved at that time, in the midst of all that feeling I hated it, because I was feeling bad because I saw that all the women and friends around me were being blessed with children but not me, I think this was envy. I was sincerely distressed, seeing that all the others were blessed and I was not. My Husband listened to me and healed my heart, I don't know exactly how He did it, I think He spoke to me so much and His promises and love have made me feel so full and loved by Him, without any need, He is definitely the one who satisfies me and who removes from me all the impure things that hurt me and that hurt my loved ones (by making me have a bad attitude with them).
I praise my sweet Husband because this second time my sister shared her pregnancy with me, He had been preparing me in a special period of fasting that I thought was about my health but He directed me to pray for the fruit of the womb, that day especially He spoke to my heart to make me understand that He loves me and is in control, when she mentioned it I felt really happy for her, there was no pain or envy, only joy. Only He could do it!!!
At the celebration we had a beautiful time, without sadness, without the “reign of my wounded self.” We celebrated and I was able to stop thinking about myself to give her attention and rejoice with her in her joy. Those kinds of details from my Husband are precious!! Who else but Him can make us feel full and satisfied in the midst of “lack”? Yes, only Him. He fills any emptiness in my heart. I can tell you that I no longer feel lacking and that I feel happy just the way I am because He is with me and is more than enough. With joy I can tell you:
—Yes darling, you are much better than 10 children!! 🥰💗
“Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.” R1215
Thank you Anastasia for your eulogy. For years I envied my sister’s life because she had everything and I found myself in her difficult situations. She always helped me make ends meet. Today I’m very happy because she allowed me to organize her accommodation and I’m really looking forward to seeing her again after 10 years.
I know that this mission she has entrusted me with comes from our beloved, so I’m working hard to find her the best hotels on our island.
I am so glad, my dear, that your HH has also healed your heart. What a relief it is to know that we do not have to live with those bitter feelings that hurt us, but that our Husband frees us from all of that.
Thank you so much for the beautiful praise Anastasia. I cannot tell you how much it touched my heart reading this today.💖
This morning as I got dressed, He reminded me of the time I interviewed the ladies that had a restored marriage and how a sentence almost all of them said was: “It is not perfect” and for some reason that bothered me so much, but I just could not put my finger on why that sentence bothered me so much. Then this morning it was like it just made sense. Of course, it is perfect, everything is perfect, because we have HIM, all we need. That means our life is perfect already! Even when we lack things. I have been so busy concentrating on everything I lack, that I took my eyes off my perfect life for a moment. My perfect life with my wonderful Friend and Husband whom is good, so wonderful, and sooooo perfect. That makes my whole life perfect, no matter what I think I lack. Then I come here and read this praise and my heart breaks for you, but you just confirm what He told me this morning. We are blessed in lack, because He is perfect! I love you so much Anastasia.
I’m so glad that HE had that detail with you to encourage you 💖
When I read that you heard them say that the restored marriage “is not perfect” it makes me think that I can understand them… like most I had a measuring tape in my hand to put my own criteria of “perfection” on the life that I was supposed to have, so by not meeting my criteria “I was not perfect” but now that my Beloved has shown me that the only thing He wants me to have perfect is my heart and intentions, I can rest and eliminate that measuring tape, to embrace the life that HE wanted to give me and the moment of my life in which I am far from my measuring tape, the measuring tape of others. Life in this world is so short compared to the wonderful eternity that He has prepared for us! It is not worth getting bitter about any of that, that is just vanity. So yes, it is true, we already have the perfect life with HIM. I love you too
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Aaaahhh dear precious Anastasia this is such a warm praise report out of your heart, that touched me. Yes only He can fill us up and satisfy us in the midst of “lack”. And I know and believe a huge testimony is on the way in your life, because that is just Who our Darling Lord is.
Amén! Mi querida Jannine, ahora que lo pienso al leerte, puedo ver que en esa debilidad El se fortaleció en mí…. Las faltas también son oportunidades para más de EL. No hay nada mas valioso o deseable que EL, por eso puedo sentirme completa.
I’m so glad you could share in your sister’s joy. Reading your message reminded me of how jealous and sad (self pity) I felt after my 3 miscarriages. I didn’t understand why it was happening, why others who didn’t appreciate it became pregnant and delivered. Back then, I didn’t know that He always has a plan for my good. His ways are higher than mine. It sounds like a wonderful celebration. Your faith and connection with Him have brought you peace and joy, and that’s beautiful. 💕