♕ Today's Promise: “In righteousness you will be established; you will be far from oppression, for you will not fear; and from terror, for it will not come near you.” Isaiah 54:14
Dear partners, thank you so very much for fronting the funds used to enable me to train and follow these courses at a time when my heart was hurting so badly I couldn't think straight. It's through your kind generosity that life began to make sense again when my heart turned to my HH and all my shame and pain was washed away by the water of the word. May God bless you as you keep sowing into His kingdom and specifically into the family unit that makes the basic social fabric of any healthy society. I am blessed because you obeyed and gave, and by God's grace I too can now pay it forward and pass it along.
When I found you, my marriage was in shambles. My husband had filed for divorce and I was hot in pursuit of making sure it would be a civil divorce, something he perceived as just me pursuing him. Within a day of doing Course Day 1, I cut contact with him completely and slowly watched as the hate-wall crumbled much to my amazement!
It's been an amazing journey being able to simply take God at His word, it's made my life SO MUCH EASIER!!!! Now that I have finished the RRR Course, I have also let go of EH not just in the physical pursuit but more importantly in the spiritual expectation. My heart belongs to my beloved HH who loves me so well and so completely. Now my EH is talking to me on a consistent basis, sharing what's going on with our business daily, and just this week when I was going to work, he offered to drive me in and I accepted. It is the first time he's been willing to share 'space' with me since he filed back in January -then he was screaming that the only place he'd ever share space with me would be in a divorce court, which became difficult when I released my lawyers and bowed out of the divorce proceedings altogether 🙂
My Lord has kept my heart in perfect peace as I continue to lean into Him for a closer, more intimate walk with Him. My soul is restored and heart is gladdened. I have no fear about my today or tomorrow for He holds my future in His hands ever so securely. I am loved and accepted just as I am and all my shortcomings have been washed away as I press on for the prize that is my Lord Himself.
My Lord, the magic of discovering you not too long again is beyond what words can explain. As I keep pressing into you, keep drawing me closer and sensitizing my ear to the sound of your voice. Keep whispering your love for me into my heart as I run after you on this exciting journey. You promise me we will do exploits and my heart is overwhelmed with the anticipation of waking up with you everyday to adventure together again and again. Thank you for loving me first and for drawing me to you.
You might fear you're dying. In a sense, you are. Dying to self, to the old life you knew, to the demanding ways you had, the emptiness you felt, the chasing after the wind... And as with every death, a rebirth awaits, a glorious rebirth full of beauty and grace. Yes, the glory of your latter house is guaranteed to overtake that of the former house. It's painful yet so very rewarding. You will be scalped out and your calloused heart sifted, but then you'll get a heart of flesh, and who doesn't want that. I cry for you for I know the pain you face, but I also rejoice for you for I know the glory to which you have been called. You are a rising star and your bridegroom awaits you. Hasten to Him and let Him put a ring on your finger, place a crown upon your head, clothe you with His righteousness and shine His light on you.
This book Facing Divorce was a lifesaver for me. I had so many misgivings about hiring a divorce attorney and waited as long as I could for months. Much to my EH anger, I didn't retain one until the day before court. And I regretted it right away, had never felt more helpless as they explained to me the procedure; I wanted to run away and to never come back. After much opposition, I decided to dismiss them and the very next day, I found this book that validated my misgivings all along. Of course, it went against current social conventions and I've since learned to never talk about it, no one would understand why I would risk losing 'everything', what they don't understand is that I have gained everything!
I gave up what I couldn't keep to gain what I could never lose... my HH's love. As for my EH, the hate-wall has come down and quite frankly I am not concerned by what is is happening with the Divorce or not. After much prayer and fasting from me, the followup divorce court date was canceled or postponed because he could not decide how to proceed by himself, what to keep versus what to give me, since my answer to everything was to 'agree with my adversary', which threw him off as he needed the fight to keep going and I wouldn't give him one in obedience to my Lord. I've given this battle over to the Lord and He is fighting it on my behalf as I rest in Him and grow in intimacy with Him as His Bride. He continues to deliver me from many waters.
Dear fellow bride, while you might be very well aware that God hates divorce and wants to restore your marriage, you're going to want to know the principles to follow so the God of order can act on your behalf. These books and courses will get you there. Let His word be your constant companion and He shapes and molds you, completely transforming your mind and making a new creation out of you.
~ Esme
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