Fear or Trust?

“But when I am afraid, I will put my trust in you.” S56:3

A few months ago, while eating something hard, I suddenly felt like a piece of my tooth had broken off. I said I’d go to the dentist later; that later was almost three months later, while the tooth was still breaking off. When the pain started, I went to the doctor, who told me the damage was huge, and that although he could fix it, it would be like a Band-Aid because it wouldn’t last long, and I’d be in pain, and I’d have to get a root canal. He didn’t explain the process to me, but I said, “You are God, and for You, nothing is impossible.”

Sometimes we don’t ask for His guidance, but rather, we try to test Him by telling Him what we want and not asking Him, which is different. Well, I feel that’s what I did. A month later, after my god-daughter birthday, at night, I was overcome by a horrible pain that made my head hurt. I felt like something was pressing on it. So I took some painkillers, but time passed and I didn’t feel any better. I asked my Beloved for help, like I often do, when It was too much. The next day I went to the doctor. The power was out, so I couldn’t do anything. Then the pain went away, and I said, “Why am I going?” In my research on the subject, I saw many possibilities and symptoms that could be dangerous. Well I spoke to my Beloved and I said “I know I told you to do the impossible” (since the Dr. told me there was no other option) “but show me a sign, and to recognize it I said if it is necessary, make it to hurt again so I know that I have to go do the process.

The next day I was in pain and I didn’t go, the next day it hurt more and I took pills until I couldn’t stand it anymore and I went, He then told me the cost which is high and I told him I would have to go back because I couldn´t afford that amount and he told me that he would give me a discount, and I thank God!!
Well the day came and I was so afraid of the pain that my confidence level was very low; and I began to repeat the promises of Psalm 112:7 and it reminded me of Matthew 5:21 “It is better for you to lose a part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell.” and this could cause an infection so I told Him “OK let’s go but You be the Dr., You do the work and please don’t let me feel no pain.”

And since HE is faithful I felt absolutely nothing, the doctor said that´s because of the pain I had before (with all what that meant for my tooth) he wouldn’t have to give me anesthesia but, since I was already in pain he would put it and so it was, It has been a month later and I haven’t felt the slightest pain since the same day and I know it was Him there and even the music that the doctor had was so relaxing that I just closed my eyes and said I trust in you, I will feel nothing, there will be no pain.

In the end, I said I wouldn’t share this testimony. I didn’t understand how it would encourage anyone, but in that, we had our RF and it showed me how my experience did teach me something. Why do we always leave Him last? Until there is nothing more to do, we seek Him when He expects the opposite. Why wait until the last instance? If we put HIM first in everything, we won’t have to worry about anything because HE will expel what doesnt belong, He will take care of everything, and since HE is love, there will be no fear. dear brides let us keep our trust in HIM no matter what bombards us daily, because we can do all things in HIM, and He showed me again every time He calmed my fears and filled it with trust in Him.

Isaiah 41:10

“Do not be afraid, for I am with you; do not be discouraged, for I am your God. I am the one who gives you strength, and I will always help you; I will always uphold you with my righteous right hand.”