Today is my oldest son's 16th birthday.
My heart is sad, I miss him I miss his hugs and his silliness. I miss him coming home after being at a friend's, sitting on the edge of my bed and telling me all about his time.
I miss him trying to tickle me, it only hurting, but I'd wiggle and laugh because I didn't want him to give up.
I miss our walks together and watching him ride his bike and doing crazy things.
I miss seeing him holding his little brother or sister and carrying them around the house. I miss his love and the joy he brought.
Today, even though it feels like he has forgotten about his real family, I know, I have hope that in the right time, God will change his heart. I've seen Him change too many hearts recently to doubt it.
I'm learning to let my son go as well as my EH through these lessons and even though my son has chosen to move out and move in with another family and live life with them, and not come around anymore, I must let him go and not try to hold onto him.
I no longer feel the pain and rejection I did at first. At first it hurt so bad I could hardly stand the pain. I felt like everyone I loved rejected me, but now I see God's hand in it all.
I now know that I put my children above my Beloved and I desperately want to love them as God intended, and for that to happen, I'm grateful He has removed them so I can learn how to do it His way and not in my earthy wisdoms way.
Though this pain is real, and it I won't get to see my son today, (he's also seemingly rejecting my other son, they were inseparable until recently) I praise God that His grace is sufficient and it's times like these when I run to Him and grow in Him.
Thank You beloved that you care about my tears and my pain.
Dear Rasa, I can’t imagine the situation you go through, but as I read your praise, this promise from our Beloved came to mind and I want to share it with you today: “He will turn the hearts of the fathers back to their children and the hearts of the children to their fathers…”💞
Just believe and rest in His arms of love, for He is working in this situation.
Much love and a warm hug from Brazil for you.🌷💕
Isn’t the most wildly wonderful thing, is that I haven’t had peace like this in all my life despite the circumstances! I woke up feeling a bit off but how quickly He used this response (thank you!) and His goodness to bring me back to Him this morning! Yes, thank you for that scripture, I just added it to my scripture cards and daily prayer! hugs from snowy Idaho 😂❄️🥰
Rasa I’m so glad he’s giving you peace and you are waiting on Him to make all things good. Have you read the Restore Your Relationships book? It’s similar on the RYM book but instead of just focusing on marriage it regards all relationships. https://loveatlast.org/ryr/
I know how you are feeling precious Rasa and I am sorry for your hurt, I too have gone through it years ago. I want to share a promise my Darling Lord gave me years ago and today I have a restored mum and son relationship with my son.
“Your children hasten back, and those who laid you waste depart from you.” I49:17
And my Darling led me to speak His promises daily into my life: “The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.” P18:21 https://biblehub.com/proverbs/18-21.htm
thank you so much for that encouragement I truly appreciate you. That is a beautiful scripture promise, I will hold onto that one 💝 blessings ❤️