“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the LORD. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts than your thoughts. I558-9
I had been very upset with a colleague at work for some time because of her behavior, and it was consuming me. I was losing control like before, responding badly when insulted, getting angry and stressed, so I started praying about it.
Some things happened at home and I felt really bad, I lost my appetite, I lost weight and I started fasting, I did the Daniel fast for 21 days, I only ate lunch. During those days I was very sad.
The situation at home culminated in the EH (earthly husband) taking our daughter to stay with him. I didn't object, although I didn't want her to go, I didn't know what to do and I didn't want her to continue as she was, with my heart bleeding, so I let her. I got over the anger I was feeling and the stress at work, and after months the same colleague went on vacation, giving everyone a break, because they couldn't stand it anymore. When she came back, I noticed an improvement in her behavior and she even started bringing me a piece of a cake that I like.
I have been praying, handing over the situations and feelings that I know are still inside me, and I cannot get rid of them alone, but I have felt much better and lighter.
I have been overcoming my daughter's absence every day and I am better than I imagined, because her father is going to church and taking her with him. Every time he leaves, she still doesn't have her heart set on it, but that is not my problem. (It seems ironic, I don't know how the Lord will do this work, but He is preparing some surprise because MT didn't go to church anymore, and it seemed like he didn't care much about his daughter's choices when she grew up. He always told her that when she turned seventeen she could do whatever she wanted). And I surrender it to the Lord, because only He can change hearts and He promises that He is the Father of orphans and the Judge of widows.
There she still doesn't have any friends and MT decided to study with her, although she is not happy about it, but I can rest easier knowing that she is not alone with bad friendships out there.
She always tells me something she doesn't like, and I tell her to listen to what her father says, and that time will pass quickly.]
It could be different, I'm renewing my mind with the Restore Your Relationships course, but I know that the Lord is working and only He knows what's best for us, and even though sometimes I want to tell MT what I think about her, I feel that the Lord has been holding me back because it's not my problem, it's His, and I give it to Him. During this time, He has taught me to be quiet, to take things more to Him and to wait.
And I don't need to understand what He's doing, I just need to trust that His plans are bigger and infinitely better than mine.
Thank you, my Father, for everything You have done for me, for Your infinite mercy, even when I make mistakes, You don't leave me at the mercy of my mistakes, but rescue me every day.
Dear friend, fasting is a powerful weapon to help us overcome the flesh and strengthen the spirit.
Don’t despair if you have fallen like me, and because of your attitudes and lack of confidence you have spoken more than you should to those who cannot help you (like I did), and things have happened that you didn’t want to happen. Don’t give up, surrender yourself each day, ask Him to straighten your paths and continue your journey, after all, no one is perfect.
He knows our hearts and acts in our favor when we seek Him sincerely. He has all power in heaven and on earth and does what pleases Him. Control still belongs to Him. We just have to believe that everything will be fine, because His plans for us are for good and not for evil.
“The king’s heart is like streams of water in the hand of the Lord; He turns it wherever He pleases.” Proverbs 21:1
“When a man’s ways please the Lord, He makes even his enemies to be at peace with him.” P16:7
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a future and a hope.” J29:11
“A father to the fatherless and a defender of widows is God in his holy habitation.” Ps68:5
Edivania John, Brazil 
Thank you so much, Edivania, for sharing your experience. I also went through a difficult time with my boss at work, which led me to take three months off work. I couldn’t stand our disagreements, the stress, and the workload she imposed on me! When I returned from my leave, I asked our Beloved to give me another perspective on her and to help me show compassion for her. The Lord is so good. He showed me that her life wasn’t easy: she is deaf (she has a hearing aid), couldn’t give birth to a child, and lost her brother. My anger toward her is completely gone, and even now when she is rude to me, the Holy Spirit guides me on how to speak to her and what to do. Our relationship is much healthier and more settled now, and I praise my Beloved for that.
I really like what you said: “I don’t need to understand what He’s doing, I just need to believe that His plans are bigger and infinitely better than mine.” That’s a perfect conclusion! 🧡
Merci beaucoup Edivania pour ton partage. J’ai aussi vécu une période compliquée avec ma cheffe au travail qui m’a amené à me mettre 3 mois en arrêt. Je ne supportais plus nos désaccords, le stress et la surcharge de travail qu’elle m’imposait ! Quand je suis revenue de mon arrêt, j’ai demandé à notre Bien-Aimé de me donner un autre regard sur elle et de m’aider à faire preuve de compassion envers elle. Le Seigneur est tellement bon. Il m’a montré que sa vie n’était pas facile : elle est sourde (elle a un appareil auditif), n’a pas pu donner naissance à un enfant et à perdu son frère. Ma colère à son égard est complètement partie et même maintenant lorsqu’elle se montre désagréable avec moi, le Saint-Esprit me guide pour savoir comment lui parler et quoi faire. Notre relation est bien plus saine et posée maintenant et je loue mon Bien-Aimé pour cela.
J’aime beaucoup ce que tu dis : “je n’ai pas besoin de comprendre ce qu’Il fait, j’ai juste besoin de croire que Ses plans sont plus grands et infiniment meilleurs que les miens.” C’est une conclusion parfaite ! 🧡
Thank you so much for coming here to share this with us. Sometimes we make mistakes and it can really help others when we share our weaknesses, instead of trying to hide our faults. Especially when these trials have you run to Him and not away from Him. It’s relatable and helpful. Thank you. ❤️
I too, have had issues with co-workers and sometimes the fleshly me doesn’t understand why the Lord does not bring an opportunity for me to leave (I have been there 17 years) but the spiritual me knows I do not understand His ways but that His ways are PERFECT and for my good.
Thank you, Edivania, for your testimony. You reminded me that I must leave my children, especially the oldest, in the hands of my Beloved. He is my children’s advocate, and although I don’t agree with the things my son does, he is of age, and I just need to keep talking to my Heavenly Husband so He can guide him.
Yes, fasting is so powerful because it gives us the spiritual strength to continue through our trials. Thank you, beautiful.