Hello, and good morning 🌞
I was reading through Psalms 42 and read this …
By day the Lord commands His steadfast love and at night His song is with me.
Last night, His song was with me as I slept. I dreamt of scripture playing on the air and had peace and love throughout my dream. Words cannot really explain it but I will just say that it’s an experience like no other.
The past few weeks, when I leave my children, every weekday, when I would see my EH when he got home from work, every day, I would hope that today was the day! I’d be full of smiles and then when I got in my truck, I’d cry out to God with my pain and sing my favorite song to Him.
This went on for quite a while.
The past two days, I’ve felt something in my heart grow. He’s growing me, he’s stretched me like clay, and now I am seeing and feeling the fruits of the stretching and pain.
I see, and I know, that I could continue on like this, and I would have so much joy and peace. Why despair?
Why would I cry out to God begging Him to give me something when it’s not time?
Today, the something that is growing in me in a new vision with my restoration being the focus of my life. Ive yearned to get to this place, reading so many beautiful testimonies about it.
Asking God, declaring He’s all I need and want. Cleaning all I can from the wise women who have gone before me. And I’m glad I did. Because today, I await my new home, and I await God’s exciting new life He has for me, one moment at a time.
I KNOW I will be blessed and safe and loved beyond my own imagining without marriage restoration!
I SEE. I FEEl IT.
I will now arise says the Lord and I will place Him in the safety in which He longs.
He will place good things in your soul. In your heart he will fill with good things.
He will give us the desires of our heart and mind is to be free.
Free as a bird to fly and serve Him and love Him all of my days.
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Thank you for sharing precious Rasa, that is finding the abundant life ( https://loveatlast.org/finding-the-abundant-life/ )
This is a passage I quoted from Finding the Abundant Life:
“Embracing your Heavenly Husband does not mean you no longer want your marriage restored—especially if you aren’t seeking a restored marriage. God will give you the 💝 desires of your heart when you delight yourself in Him! This is the Abundant Life you will find!
Ultimately, it’s YOUR Choice. What you choose now 💔 if your heart is still broken may be different than when your heart is ❤️🩹 healed, just as the author of our Abundant Life books discovered.”
I’ve seen so many testimonies saying that there won’t be a restored marriage unless we get to the point we don’t want it anymore. so I’ve been feeling guilty for wanting it still.