Since this explosion in my life, called marriage, my son’s have suffered greatly. I have two teenage boys, from my old, sinful life.
When I married my EH I had so many expectations, hopes, etc not knowing anything about godly marriages or how to be a gentle and submissive woman, things turned straight out the gate. When they did, I lost my hope, my faith, ran by fear and depression.
This caused me to miss a lot with my boys. They were forced to watch what was happening, the chaos the fear, alone, and had no one to answer questions.
Recently I’ve been asking God to soften my boys hearts, (one has moved out and I rarely see him, so I’m trusting God’s working on him too) that He would reveal Himself to them and they would believe!
For years I’ve been so overwhelmed with sin that I have failed to pray for them with true faith.
But all the amazing works He has done recently, growing my faith, my prayers have been more real than ever.
Last night, after going through a time that I truly needed His peace to wash over me, desperately needed His peace and help taking my thoughts captive so they would stay on Him alone. ( Take every thought into obedience, and when my thoughts wander to think on my circumstances, I actually tell my beloved I am sorry)
So after that, my son comes home from work and he starts talking, which is so rare. We talked for almost an hr and a half. Until midnight!
He shared with me how he didn’t hate my EH and that even though there were bad times, there was a lot of good. He went on to say that he used to be jealous of those who had dad’s, but now he sees theen in his life that have been good examples.
He asked me my thoughts on drinking and it’s place in my problems and asked what was the point of all our pain and suffering his whole life, I was able to freely share with him what I’ve learned, and how with God there will be trials, but he wants to see where our hearts are!
What an incredible thing!
I tried to stay quiet and listen well, but I confess, I get excited and don’t communicate very efficiently so I tend to go on and on but I quickly apologized to him when I did.
I know that my sees a difference in me and I am praising the ONLY one worthy of that praise.
Sisters, I am learning firsthand that our Beloved is a father to the fatherless. My son has never known a true father and here is our wonderful Husband, showing up, like He does, in His perfect way.
Thank you for sharing precious Rasa, our Darling Lord is definitely a Father to the fatherless and He is the best ever Father.
Years ago I messed up with my eldest son, because I was so consumed in my own hurt and looked for comfort in the world, but I am so grateful that my Darling Lord never left me and He took me out of the world and restored me and years ago He gave me this beautiful promise that came in to fulfillment a few years ago and today our Darling Lord has restored me and son’s relationship.
“This is what the Lord says: “A voice is heard in Ramah, mourning and great weeping, Rachel weeping for her children and refusing to be comforted, because they are no more.” This is what the Lord says:
“Restrain your voice from weeping and your eyes from tears, for your work will be rewarded,” declares the Lord. “They will return from the land of the enemy. So there is hope for your descendants,” declares the Lord. “Your children will return to their own land.” J31:15-17 https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Jeremiah%2031%3A15-17&version=NIV
oh that is a beautiful scripture, thank you for sharing that with me! praise God that He brought you from seeking comfort in the world to being satisfied in Him. AND restoring your son to you!! haha that is Soo amazing!!!
Wow Rasa. I love this and am so happy that you and your son were able to talk and that you also were able to share about your having a relationship with the Lord and the amazing changes that come from Him.
Oh Rasa thank you for coming to share what your sons HF is doing. I also want to say that whether you kids grow up in a stable family environment or not there is still a fight a struggle for their lives in this fallen world because as parents we cannot protect them from everything but we do have HIM to run to and to sit down and talk to about our children and our concerns for them, our hopes and desires, dreams for their future, but mainly their HF’s will for their lives be done. Amen
“And all thy achildren shall be taught of the Lord; and great shall be the peace of thy children.” Isa54:13
“I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth.” 3 John 1:4
Thank you for sharing, there is no greater joy, especially after all that our children went through, it’s heartwarming to see them drawing closer to their Heavenly Father.