"For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them." E2:8;10
Hello beautiful brides
I wanted to share with you a testimony of how my Love gave me insight to a challenging situation.
Recently I have been painting a friend's house, to which I am provided for by my Love! And this is a quite the labor intensive job but I do get the blessing of bringing my two children with me while I work.
They enjoy exploring the forest and playing outside while I paint. They'll come and chat and play inside a bit and they are enjoying themselves.
But my friend, she loves it when my children call her Nana. She gets a long so wonderfully with my daughter, but my son, she seems to dislike.
As I was listening and watching the conversations with my son and her, I noticed, she speaks to him as if she suspects him always to be naughty and has very accusatory tones and words. It hurts my heart foe my son. He shuts down and doesn't answer her questions because he can feel she's displeased with him.
I was talking to my Love about all this while i was painting, three days in a row, asking Him to show me how He saw all of this, to give me his understanding and his heart for this situation. Because the mama bear in me was getting quite...upset. To put it mildly.
So I asked my Love to show me why my friend is the way she is. I also started noticing she does this to many of the people in her life. I was able to get a front row seat to her her daily interactions. I also found myself judging her. Doesn't she know? How can she speak like that. Etc etc
To which I kept having to repent and pray in the spirit to keep my mind from wondering into judgement.
I came home after a very long day of painting and was vacuuming when I was given the truth. My Love showed me why she treats my son in particular this way.
It's because of her own pain and experience of severe favoritism when she was a child by her own mother. He reminded me that she once accused me of treating my children differently and me showing favoritism to my son. So she treats my son badly. Because of the way she sees things.
I must also confess that I truly didnt treat my daughter the way I now do. At the time, I didn't understand my daughter and didn't know what she needed. I barely knew what I needed.
But understanding why people do what they do helps me. He gave me a softer heart towards her, and not such a critical heart. I've asked Him time and time again to release me from this friendship but He must not be done teaching me and stretching me, using her. Because she continues to reach out to me and ask me for help.
I'm also reminded by Him that I am where I am today, because of HIM and not because of anything I've done. But because of His great love towards me and His power to change my heart and mind about things in my past. Freeing me from lies and old stories that impacted how I responded to the things and people around me.
He is faithful to show us, He wants us to walk in a understanding and compassionate way towards all man.
And He wants us to come to Him and rely on Him through it all.