For the lips of the adulterous woman drip honey,
and her speech is smoother than oil; Pro5:3
I was having trouble with FULLY letting go, so He led me to fast (which He has been prompting me to do me weeks ago). I was reading the Bible when I received a message from EH. He asked if he can call me. Three weeks after our separation. It was unexpected. It was something I thought I was unprepared for. But this time, my heart did not fear anything. I know He will be with me the whole time. So, I just responded with “Of course!”.
First thing he did was to APOLOGISE! Something I did not expect. Then a lot has been said, information that I didn’t really want to know. But! BUT! It didn’t hurt anymore. PAIN FREE! If that call was made a month ago, my heart would’ve been broken. I was actually at peace the whole time just listening to his stories.
All the while, I was just thinking about my Love about how amazing He is. About how much He loves me, that my EH cannot give me the love that I long for. That it’s truly him that I want and need!
Like literally! I was actually sending Him messages (sending to my self) the whole time. I told Him that the call is taking too long! I was asking Him what the phone call was for.
I just agreed with everything he said. I didn’t speak too much, unless asked. Or if it’s something He prompted me to say. I was actually quiet! I just listened the entire time! Even if it was about him and the OW. It didn’t hurt one bit! When he told me about “his emotions” I sent a message to Him saying “I just know it’s because you turned his heart away from me and that is the best thing you did! Because now I have You again!”
Then he proceeded to tell me that things were not going well with them, and that the OW changed. He was thinking if he made the right decision. That he actually wishes that I don’t leave our home.
You know the verse, right ladies? I didn’t expect it to actually happen in just a short amount of time!
Then I remembered asking Him a week ago if He can show me if there was trouble in paradise (Like Erin mentioned in one of her videos). That I want to hear from Him in bold letters. Truly it was not just bold, but CAPITALIZED from the mouth of my EH.
The phone call lasted for three hours, it was 4am in the morning there. 12 hour difference. And I came out of it, in one piece. I just felt peace the whole time, I did not feel any fear or pain. He was with me all through out the time reminding me that He is at work, that the other side is not what I think it is.
He is just so amazing, right? I just fell in love with Him more! This morning I woke up with a void in my heart and I told Him if He can please fill it up with His love. And He did! Through this phone call He showed me just how much He loves me.