"If you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give up your life for me, you will find it." M10:39
Please read this part taken out of Finding The Abundant Life, Chapter 2 "Finding Your Life"
What do you do when your world falls?
The song that I love to sing says, “And even if my world falls I will say . . . Above ALL I live for your glory!!”
I knew that God was in complete control and that no matter what happened, the Lord was all that I needed, and He was all that I wanted. Through my love and trust in Him, I knew, my world falling would be used to give glory to God.
When my world came crashing down (after my spouse first left me years ago) I desperately tried to "fix" everything and of course fell apart because I was losing my whole life - my marriage at that time.
At stages I felt God was punishing me and if I didn't think that, I thought my husband was totally possessed
which was (in my mind) caused by the other woman. Moreover, I didn't think that God was in control, I thought my spouse was in control of the situation and was doing everything to hurt me because of his great hatred towards me or let me rather say I thought the other woman was controlling the whole situation. (You can probably now tell my whole world was in chaos).
I thought that if I lost my life (the life I thought I needed so much), that I would definitely not be "ok". And on top of that I wasn't willing to lose that life, I didn't want to be a single parent and on top of that the shame of being divorced at such a young age...
And if you had told me then that I would say these words one day, I would have blatantly said: NEVER EVER! But here I am and I'm going to say it now: I'm grateful that my world collapsed and even collapsed quite a few times, it was necessary. I am thankful that my Beloved Lord knows me the way He does and that He knew exactly what was needed to get me to the point where I would be willing to lose my life for His glory.
Today I can honestly say I'm more than ok because I have Him and this life I have now with Him, I don't want to trade for anything or anyone and it was worth it to loose the life I thought I had needed.
So precious woman I want to encourage you to trust our precious Beloved Lord. He is in control and has everything under control. Your world that maybe collapsing now is also going to be used by Him for His glory and you are also going to be more than ok.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." J29:11
Thank you for sharing Janine! It is true once we have Him as our First Love, it doesn’t matter if we have a restored marriage or not. He is truly all that matters. Even though I have a restored marriage and three restoration babies who I am very thankful for, I wouldn’t change anything that I had to go through. This ministry and all the lessons helped me to have a true relationship with my HH, this is not something that is taught in church. Thank you again for sharing!