♕ Today's Promise: “Let your character or moral disposition be free from love of money [including greed, avarice, lust, and craving for earthly possessions] and be satisfied with your present [circumstances and with what you have]; for He [God] Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [I will] not, [I will] not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let [you] down (relax My hold on you)! [Assuredly not!].” Hebrews 13:5
Just today, in my journaling I was crying out to the Lord to help me understand how on earth I can continue to do the RMI courses and let go of my marriage (I am now divorced). It just seems that coming to do the lessons everyday gives me hope and courage which is great unless you're wanting to let go.
How can I let go AND hold on to something without feeling like I am trying to manipulate God. I just honestly could not wrap my mind around this concept. Well, as I was writing my "Dear Bride" encouragement assignment for Lesson 10 on Protection Assurance, I was encouraging Brides to let their money go to God and trust that He will send back what they need.
Well just then He used that to speak to me. If I can let money go and expect it back according to His promises, why couldn't I let my ex husband go and still expect him back? There's no trickery or confusion. The hurdle then is simply letting go. Which honestly I have been struggling with. I let go of doing all the things, asking earthly husband for things or confronting him etc. but in my heart, I may be ok for a day or two but it's back to wishing things were better already. I just don't want that back and forth anymore.
I want to only want my Heavenly Husband because He is all I need. Well, for about two weeks I have been asking earnestly for my Heavenly Husband to help me to let go for good. This is scary because I say well if I let go then it's over, I fainted and the Word says I can only reap in due season if I do NOT faint. But, I feel like that's me being super religious and over analytical.
So I have asked God today to really help me to let go. I have given Him total reign of my heart and He can turn it wherever He likes. I only want to want Him but I cannot do that in my own strength, I need His help. I know it's available so I am just praising Him for giving me the courage to truly be ready to let go and for showing me my answer so quickly while I was trying to encourage anyone reading the lesson on tithing in the future.
Hebrews 13:5 "Let your character or moral disposition be free from love of money [including greed, avarice, lust, and craving for earthly possessions] and be satisfied with your present [circumstances and with what you have]; for He [God] Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [I will] not, [I will] not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let [you] down (relax My hold on you)! [Assuredly not!].
"Give [your broken marriage to the Lord], and it shall be given unto you...for with the same measure that ye met with all it shall be measured to you again." Adapted from Luke 6:38
~ Gianna in Kansas
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