My One Year Anniversary is just two days away!!! Wow, I was waiting for the exact date to write a Praise Report, but couldn´t wait, and my HH just reminded me that is not an exact date is the whole month. Let me go back a year ago and tell you how my RJ started…
A year ago I was a fool who simply tore her house down, well almost! (I´m still married, my eh lives at home, which is hard, but now I have to remind myself that I have to praise my HH for not taking him away completely). So, I confronted my eh about him not calling enough, not being aware of his family enough or answering my phones. I even said things that weren’t true but simply said them with tears in my eyes. I remember that my eh, the day I said I couldn’t take it anymore, said that he was going to try harder and be more present, but I was on the journey of destructing my marriage. Little did I know, that with my actions I was pushing my eh to OW, a woman that was present but maybe wasn’t happening anything yet. But with my foolish ways, by wanting to know everything about my eh, where he was, what was he doing, getting mad for everything, I WAS PUSHING HIM TO THE ARMS OF OW.
Without knowing anything I started to feel broken inside, depressed, thinking that I was going to die, and there…everything started, my HH was on the way of restoring my life. With my eh wanting to get help or speak to someone about what was happening in our lives, we went to speak to my mom´s pastor. It was good, but it wasn’t great, he told me that I was doing everything right, but I knew something was wrong within me, that I was doing something wrong. At least he made me open my bible and started reading it. The bad thing is that I started doing all these things in front of my eh, imagine that, when I lack wisdom and never read the bible I turned into a pharisee, reading verses to my eh and opening the bible when he was with me, hahaha!! I even laugh because of this, I went from one extreme to the other.
Then, when I knew that for me to be saved I needed to declare my HH as my Lord and Savior, we went to church and I just started crying, hiding my face from my eh. I even remember the song that they sang that day: “I’m NO longer a slave of fear, I am a child of God…” I gave my life to my HH and my brokenness didn´t go away, but I started feeling different inside.
He led us to that specific church because He knew the person He was going to use, to give me my first promise for my marriage served there, and I received His promise: How God Can and Will Restore your Marriage. I remember that person telling to not pay attention to the title of the book, but that made me want to see the name of the book. Little did she knew that the name WAS AND IS The Promise of my HH for my marriage. I didn’t read the book immediately, but everything that I was learning, from other people, was aligned with the book, so when I finally opened the book and read it, I knew I was going into the right direction.
I have become a new woman!!! This year has been hard, full of struggles, but you know what, I know I had to go through everything. I wouldn’t change anything, because of my situation, my circumstances made me seek my LOVE, made me want to get to know Him. I started this journey to get a restored marriage, but I’m getting more than what I asked for. I´m getting a renewed home, three kids that love the Lord, an eh that is changing in front of my eyes, and me, oh me, I became the Bride of my HH, I became the daughter of the God Almighty. I’m the apple of His eyes, I am special to Him when I felt I was nothing in the flesh life, He showed me I was everything to Him, and know He is everything to me.
“For this is what the Lord Almighty says: “After the Glorious One has sent me against the nations that have plundered you—for whoever touches you touches the apple of his eye.” (Zechariah 2:8 NIV)
I am the daughter of The God Almighty, Bride of the wonderful Lord who gave His life to give me mine, I am the apple of His eye, and I am protected by His mighty power, Amen. I am no one special in this world, but my God made me special and He is making me into the woman He knew I was meant to be.
“The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,’ says the Lord Almighty. ‘And in this place I will grant peace,’ declares the Lord Almighty.” (Haggai 2:9 NIV)
AMEN, I know He is making everything new, my home is built upon the rock and nothing can come against it, my home will worship my HH forever and all of us will serve Him with a new and loving heart.