I saw what I was doing

"Speak kindly . . . And call out to her, that her warfare has ended, that her iniquity has been removed, that she has received of theΒ Lord’sΒ handΒ double for all her sins.” Isaiah 40:2

Hello beautiful brides!

It's a frigid cold day here and I'm typing this quickly in my car before I go in to work. I am so grateful for good car heaters! Haha yes, so a few days ago, I had experienced an instant where my boss was trying to hook me up with her brother...and the Lord gave me such peace to not say anything in return.

Well, today, I get to boast about my weaknesses πŸ˜‚

Yesterday I met with an old friend, she wanted to see me and my daughter. She asked some questions about my son now living with me and some other personal questions about my spouse. Let me tell you, I was not in the Spirit, I answered her questions, semi discreetly, but afterwards I still felt the ick feeling. I didn't want her to know anything at all and I was confused about why I did let that stuff out! If I say he's out of the picture, she judges, if I say he's in the picture, she asks more questions. I cannot win. I don't want her to judge my spouse at all. Because I know that it's the Lord who has allowed this to happen, and she just doesn't understand that quite yet. So, I lay it down, at His feet and I know He will use this for my good, like He faithfully does.

One thing I do know, is I'm much more sensitive to how people see him. I used to not care if ppl knew about all the details, they may have wisdom I needed or something I had missed. But now, I feel a desire to cover up his life, and let it be private between him and the Lord.

So that is already a blessing I've received out of this situation. He is faithful, good and true.

So I'll just keep trusting Him as my leader, counselor and best friend. πŸ’•

3 thoughts on “I saw what I was doing”

  1. My dear Rasa, I’ve also met people who ask me about my husband and I don’t answer their questions, I just say that he’s doing very well without giving any details. A good friend of mine called me to tell me that they had posted their relationship on facebook, she didn’t understand why I was taking it so normally and as our darling knows everything in advance he led me back to read How GOD can and will restore your marriage. I simply told her God is in control and I’m very happy with my new husband.

  2. Dear Rasa,

    I found myself in the same position about a week ago, my colleagues suddenly took an interest in my life (or should I rather call it curious)

    I must confess I did not stand strong, I felt discouraged (the enemy knows exactly when I feel at my weakest). I also do not talk about my situation or about my husband with anyone, I also have the desire to keep his life private, as you say it is between our earthly husbands and the Lord.

    Thank you for reminding me that I must continue to trust in the Lord as my leader, counselor and best friend

  3. Dear Rasa, that is something wonderful that Our Beloved has taught us. To be silent. People are so oblivious to pain and to what we can feel. I also always remain silent if they ask me about my earthly husband. Changing the subject.
    Because the Lord has all the control and we, as we have learned at RMi, are not to judge and to tell everything only to Him. Thank you, beautiful.

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