” I have told you all these things, so that in me you may have peace. Here in the world you will have many trials and sorrows; but take heart, for I have overcome the world.” J16:33
Today as I was reading a devotional HE said to me through it, “No matter how things look, I am in control!”
A few weeks ago, I shared about my husband’s visit to my son and how happy he was with his dad and I was for him. Although I was smiling most of the time, a lot of things were going through my mind.
I thought about all the times he hadn’t show up to our the son, how angry I felt when he cried, and how I didn’t want him to suffer again. Everything was going well that day. But, because of my doubts, I went ahead and told him to leave the meeting as a surprise, but it was just in case he later would tell me, he wouldn’t be able to make it. Ladies, I don’t know if it was fear, doubt , or something else, but what I do know is that it wasn’t from God; they were thoughts of “prevention.” I wasn’t letting my God work, and I think I messed up something in His plan by putting my hand in.
Ladies, sometimes we don’t know there’s something we need to clean very deeply inside us, until He shows it to us. I read the word, the lessons and everything pointed to changes that were coming but I imagined them in someone else my spouse or my son or my mother but not in me. When we were at the pizza rest. where we met and he greeted everyone I was sitting a little far from him so I had to get up to greet him and I was in someone else´s chair getting air from the fan hehe 😂 and I got up to go to my chair passing in front of him, and rethinking my greeting it was so cold, definitely that’s not from God. I just said “Henry!” and I took a step forward and my son pulled me, I almost fell and spouse catch me in his arms, my son said “Why shake hands? it´s Henry, is that how you greet your husband?” I had to laugh, so we hugged but I felt forced as I did, and then I realized that I still have things to clean, to forgive and to let go.
My oldest niece asked him where he works and he said something like “well, nobody wants me, you know my situation and nobody wants me like that” and he looked at me again and our eyes met, and it felt so bad to see him like that and the life he lives and how it´s treating him. And in my mind I only said Lord I have to pray for HIM. Those two days he chatted with me all day about our son and the place where they went.
And I asked my self why he chats with me as if nothing happened after not talking for more than a year (instead of being grateful). When he left he didn’t talk to us again and I said to myself, “That’s why I should be grateful!” and I thanked my Beloved for every single thing on that trip even what I didn’t like because I know that if He allowed it it’s because He has a plan.
” I have told you all these things, so that in me you may have peace. Here in the world you will have many trials and sorrows; but take heart, for I have overcome the world.” J16:33
After that, we started the Homeschooling groups , and he reminded me that my son is being transformed and restored. We read the first lesson from Book 2, Built on the Rock, “Set Apart,” and he loved it. He says he’s looking forward to reading the second chapter, which talks about the rains because it rains where we live.
Every stage in your life is one to learn just like mine, and I know that your Beloved Heavenly Father has a wonderful plan for our lives but we have to learn to let Him work.
Brides, what I tell you here is not to talk about my spouse but to show my weaknesses and my faults and how that also tells me that my journey of restoration continues and that we are all in a different stage, in a new season but that we always need HIM in each season to be able to see the best in him, my Heavenly Love .
” Jesus answered:
—My kingdom is not an earthly kingdom. If it were, my followers would fight to prevent me from being handed over to the Jewish leaders; but my kingdom is not of this world.” John 18:36
Dear Jewel, thank you for sharing this testimony with us. I realize that I also regularly greet or approach my FH (first husband) in a cool manner, while he himself has an open and friendly attitude. I do this because I want to keep my distance and actually do not want to have too much contact because I notice that his heart is still hardened. But through your testimony I learn that it is not good to have a cool attitude. God asks of me a friendly and loving attitude while He continues His work. I am grateful that He is still busy with an internal cleanup in my life. (I love the title you chose for your testimony)
Thank you so much Jewel for this testimony it truly spoke to me !
Recently, the Lord showed me how hard and cold I had been towards my husband, who is still living at home. I learned that he had spoken about it to the other woman, and I asked the Holy Spirit to help me in this area.
In His infinite love, God gave me another opportunity to face this test.
When my husband spoke to me telling me he was leaving for several days to be with the other woman, I was able to respond with gentleness and love.
There was no anger or bitterness in my heart. I even smiled as I answered him.
The Holy Spirit led me to fast during that week, and it helped me so much to speak with grace and kindness.
Through it all, I realized something powerful :
Love is what we are called to give, to live, to share, and to reflect always.
Thank you again for your words !