I will joy in the God of my salvation, I will rejoice in the Lord, my HH. It is only this evening that I realized that the Lord had healed me of an evil that troubled me for a long time. Indeed, since my adolescence, or perhaps my childhood because my memories are not exact, I was suffering from crisis I will call “spiritual attack.” I can’t find the right words to describe this evil. It was a feeling of great unease that suddenly came over me. Suddenly I was afraid, I was anxious, I was a wreck, an empty shell. I think I can say that I literally felt my mind drowning. It was horrible. I would find myself, even in the midst of my family, laughing with them, behave as if all was well when I was suffering terribly. Even now I wonder how I could bear such pain without ever complaining and telling my parents. It was to the point that I was convinced that sooner or later I would lose my mind, I’d go crazy.
That’s when I started my recovery path and the Lord took me in “my desert” for I understood that it was a spiritual problem. I started to pray when crises arose asking God to free me from this evil that disturbed me. It is very clear in my mind, but I think I had to fast and make several pleas to God to beg Him for my healing. The most vivid memory I have is that I was working on my computer one afternoon and I felt this thing happen. I ran to my room, I fell on my knees, and I begged the Lord to have mercy on me, not to let the spirit take possession of me, I remember saying to Him that I am raised with Him from the dead and I would not allow it to take over me. And He did it !! After a few minutes, I felt free and I got back up.
Today I do not even remember the last time I suffered this attack, but this afternoon it hit me that it’s been months that my LORD healed me and that I had not even realized it’s gone !! Yes it’s been months since I am delivered from this evil!
Thank You, Lord!!!! Thank You for making me understand that trusting in You alone, by giving myself entirely to You, I have the solution to all my problems. You have the solution to everything Lord, You ARE the solution to everything. No human being, no matter how much he cares about me, can do what You do.
I remember that I wanted to confide in my brother and my father. I needed to talk about it because I thought that these attacks, which added to the solitude of my desert, would eventually kill me. But I scared them, they were in a panic, and I felt they were trying, but they did not understand what I was feeling. So I gave up hoping they could help and I had not spoken to them or anyone but You since.
My words will never be enough to say thank You Lord, my LOVE! Rule my heart and take my life today my Lord!
~ Eliza in Cameroon
Eliza is on our Translation Team helping us in French.
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