"He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him; He will also hear their cry and will save them." P14519
It is becoming more and more of a habit for me to experience Him as my Heavenly Husband. It is amazing that He shows me every month that I can focus my life even more on Him. He teaches me to trust Him more and more deeply that He fulfills all the desires I have in His time and according to His plan. I am thankful that He has allowed me to keep my focus on the children now and no longer on restoring my marriage.
A few days ago I read in the letter to the Romans about Abraham's faith:
"In hope against hope he believed, so that he might become a father of many nations according to that which had been spoken, “SO SHALL YOUR DESCENDANTS BE.” Without becoming weak in faith he contemplated his own body, now as good as dead since he was about a hundred years old, and the deadness of Sarah’s womb; yet, with respect to the promise of God, he did not waver in unbelief but grew strong in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully assured that what God had promised, He was able also to perform." Romans 4:18-21
He had to wait many years for the birth of his son, When it was humanly impossible, his son was born. I thought about His promise for my marriage, yes I am convinced that He will restore it, even now that there is no indication that this will happen soon. But can I continue to have faith as long as Abraham did? Does it make sense to focus on the restoration of my marriage now, if it is going to take a long time?
My Heavenly Husband told me then. "Hanna, you do not know when your marriage will be restored, it could easily take 30 years, focus your heart on Me, I want to be your goal, your focus should not be on the restoration of your marriage but on Me. I will do what I promise, but now you must focus on the responsibility for raising and guiding your children."
Because He said this, I learned to let go again, I may enjoy my life with Him, I may keep my focus on Him first as my Heavenly Husband and also on the children, I may care for them, teach them but I must also learn to let go now that they are getting older. My restored marriage will really come in His time and according to His plan.
I can say nothing other than that a life with Him is wonderful, I am so grateful for His unconditional love, I am so grateful for His guidance and care. I am thankful that there is more focus on child rearing in this ministry, I know this is part of His plan for my life. He makes sure that every teaching I need is ready and available in His perfect time for me and all the other brides.
I am thankful that I can share with the other brides things about how He is working in our family and the hearts of our children.
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