Never Alone

When my EH “earthly husband” was in process of leaving me last year, I expressed to him how lonely I had felt over the past several years, trying to convince him all I needed was more of his time. Praise the Lord, He knew what I truly needed: more time with Him!

One night, when I was working through the pain of some particularly difficult memories, I lashed out at my EH and I just fell to the floor sobbing. After watching me cry for a long time, my EH suggested I find someone to work through all this with, telling me I couldn’t get through it alone. How right he was! Of course, what I needed was not the type of help he had in mind, but looking back, I can see how the Lord was with me from the very beginning.

Within days of my marriage crumbling, I begged the Lord to change me. He began His work immediately, steering me away from programs and counselors. I could see the merit in them, but I knew they didn’t have what I needed. With every resource that came into my life, the Lord helped me to extract the precious from the worthless, but told me to keep moving. He showed me through scripture what had happened to me and my earthly husband, broke my heart over my own idolatry and spiritual adultery, and gave me promises to hold onto when things looked hopeless.

Six months into my crisis, I found RMI. Everything I read confirmed and expanded on what He had been telling me, what I’d known in my spirit to be the truth (like not fighting my battles in court). When I learned about taking the Lord as my Husband, everything began to change. He walked with me through each and every lesson, using His word to teach, rebuke, correct, and train me in righteousness (2 Tim. 3:16), washing me daily with the water of His word (Eph. 5:26). He put before me the right scriptures, testimonies, and lessons just when I needed them, always confirming His word, and began to prepare me for the tests and trials I would face, making me more and more confident in Him and His ability and promise to fight my battles for me.

He has been so faithful! He has delivered me from all my fear, anxiety, and depression (my most constant companions before He rescued me). He has answered my prayer and changed me. Most importantly, He has never, not for one moment, left me alone. When I have stumbled, He has lifted me up again and set my feet back on solid ground. When I have been confused, He has shown me the truth through His word and the testimony of others, keeping me on the narrow path. When my peace is threatened, he comforts and reassures me, reminding me that no matter what happens, He will never leave me nor forsake me (Heb. 13:5). I used to say my greatest fear was being alone, and indeed, for many years as I sank deeper and deeper into the pit, being alone became a torment. But GOD!

My Love was always with me, longing to hold me, but now I am holding onto HIM, wrapped tightly in His loving arms. I cherish every moment alone in His presence. He is my Protector, my Provider, my Lover, my Friend, my Confidante, my Counselor, my Prince of Peace, my Beloved Husband. I am never alone.