I have so much to praise my Beloved HH for I didn’t know which category to pick because I have a little bit of everything. I have been trying to do this PR for the past 2 weeks. My trials are getting harder but each time I come out of them I feel so changed and blessed. I couldn’t have done this without this ministry, THANK YOU!
My hardest trial that I was fasting and praying for was asking my Beloved to give me the strength to endure it. In this major trial, I have so many praises to give to Him! So many answered prayers and promises I saw in this one. My EH’s child he had with the OW came early at 34 weeks. This child I was fasting and praying for and my Lord has given me strength. I knew about her pregnancy since the beginning. The baby came on my birthday week. It was a very difficult week but my Beloved was always with me each moment, counting each one of my tears. He allowed me to feel sorrow and pain and then He healed and mended my heart and lifted me back up.
I prayed that all I wanted for my birthday was His joy and peace and He so lovingly gave it to me! Even though it wasn’t how I planned or pictured it but I was so full of His joy and peace and everyone noticed it! Also for about 4 or 5 years each time on or around my birthday I would always get really bad migraines, well PTL this year I didn’t get any!! All I got was His pure joy and peace!
Another PR was my EH told me months ago that his family was dead to him. He was upset at their “Pharisee” attitude toward our situation, they were very pushy, pushing me to divorce him and move on to someone else and that hurt him a lot. I fasted and prayed that My Beloved would also restore their relationships and I apologized to each and every one of them when I first read How God because I shamed my EH with his family.
So I felt guilty for his family being so against him. I prayed that My Lord would soften my EH’s heart toward his family. Well, He answered me! 3 days after his child was born he took his mother, which he hasn’t spend time or called in months, to meet his child. She was devastated, no one knew about the OW pregnancy but I of course did. But I said I wouldn’t shame him anymore and kept quiet about it. He then spoke and took his other sisters. They are still very judgemental and with their spiritual arrogance but I praise the Lord that my EH humbled and soften his heart towards his family. They are still not well with the situation, his family wants to see radical changes in him, but I know my Beloved is working in him.
Another praise I want to give to Him was because when everyone found out, it gave me the opportunity to share my RJ with so many women in my family. One was the last person I expected, the least religious, was moved and praised me for what I have been doing, showing unconditional love. I know the Word of my Beloved doesn’t go out empty so I know my testimony touched her. The other, my mother, a very proud woman which I have been praying to my Beloved to soften her heart, somewhat understands my RJ but still is seeing with her flesh eyes and just sees the pain—which I very lovingly explained that the pain is part of our walk with Him. I know He is working with her. The 3rd woman I explained my RJ said she understood what I was saying but because she wants her ears tickled and turns her ears from the Truth and turns aside to myths, she kept insisting for days that I was wrong. My Beloved very lovingly whispered in my ear to “agree with your adversary.” I obeyed and we don’t speak about the subject anymore and if she brings it up I simply agree. This course 3 has truly refreshed my mind.
Psalm 40 1,3,5 (NASB)
“I waited patiently for the Lord;
And He inclined to me and heard my cry.
He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God;
Many will see and fear
And will trust in the Lord
Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders which You have done,
And Your thoughts toward us;
There is none to compare with You.
If I would declare and speak of them,
They would be too numerous to count.
I delight to do Your will, O my God;
Your Law is within my heart.”
Let all who seek You rejoice and be glad in You;
Let those who love Your salvation say continually,
“The Lord be magnified!”
I am so grateful to be with my Beloved. He is my all! I loved this Psalm when I read it today and it keeps repeating these verses in my heart all day long! In the NLT it says “The Lord is great!” He is!
RMT: EH Confessed OW was Expecting his Child posting in September!!