Poverty Mentality – Where did I go wrong?

Dear Brides, I want to share what a learned from this lesson of the book Poverty Mentality (https://loveatlast.org/fc/poverty-mentality/), lesson Where did I go wrong ? (https://loveatlast.org/fc/poverty-mentality/chapter-4-where-did-i-go-wrong/)

It is so funny that when I am about to journal a lesson God allows me to live it first. That's great!

This week, I felt God leading me to share with some dear friends what He was calling me to do, I haven’t shared it, with anyone, because I am alone with my Lover in this season of my journey I don’t have family around, nor friends that are like-minded. Those friends were my old good friends. They could not understand my vision, they thought that it was strange, that I was not qualified to do it, and that I would never measure up and nobody would want or need my help. He continued saying that I needed to find a job outside the home to provide for my kids, now that my husband was gone.

I felt confused and baffled by their comments for they used to be very good friends, I was wondering if I heard from the Lord right when he told me to speak with them.
Now reading this lesson I understand for the author says: “'We believe that every problem that plagues us is the result of someone’s sin, someone’s mistake, someone who is out to get us, when, in fact, it is often God Himself who is behind it. Yet Christians still refuse to look at this as even a remote possibility; the possibility that it could be God, not just God who is “allowing” this “enemy” attack, but God who created the calamity. I never thought of that but instead I felt discouraged, afraid, and ashamed and I was wondering if what I was hearing from God was real if it was just something in my mind, or if I was just too much of a dreamer, I started feeling hopeless and with a feeling of giving up. And was down pretty much all day, just like the author described. So often when trials hit us, we dread, panic, hide, feel guilty, and experience every negative emotion under the sun. Yet, by allowing negative thoughts and feelings to be our focus, which often consumes us, we usually miss the anticipation and excitement of what God is about to do when He shows up in our current crisis.”

I never thought of what God could do, and I did not get excited like the author suggested “Why not look for what God can do and is about to do in our lives when a crisis hits or calamity strikes? Quickly shift the way you think remembering “it was so that the works of God might be displayed”!)

He even showed me this bible verse during the crisis (“Now to him who can do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.Ephesians 3: 20-21) and this verse too “But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.1 Co 2:9

I also could not keep my faith built up, instead, I was staring of what was happening and I did not look up to God’s goodness like the author described “ I don’t have to keep staring at what is happening with my finances. Yes, I could, but I don’t. Instead, I look up, into His face, focusing on His goodness and faithfulness. Amazingly, later on I went to read Psalms and the verses that he was showing me were about his goodness and faithfulness:
“Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,and I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever. Psalms 23:6

“For the king trusts in the LORD; through the unfailing love of the Most High he will not be shaken. Psalms 21:7

On that same evening, the author was led to do something strange. The author said:
“That same evening, I did another strange thing by answering emails. I never did that (and still don’t) since it makes me think too much at night and I can’t fall asleep. But that night I did.and that’s when I received an email that totally blew me away! Another dear, precious fellowship member of mine, who lives in Asia, wrote to tell me that she was sending a donation of more than fifteen thousand dollars!

Also that evening I did something strange by calling back a friend whom I had missed call It was late and we were all already preparing for bed, and I had never called anyone that late since that would distract the boys from sleeping that’s when I received a call from my friend that lifted my spirit! A friend of hers heard about the Believe program that I am helping my friend with and also wants to join the program, that not just mean more income but one more person that I can reach with the word! I was happy!

That was so uplifting since my good friends said that nobody would want my help.
And just like the author explained it was just when she gave, that God came through for her.
For me also, I was feeling discouraged and down all day, but I learning to press forward anyway so I went to preach the good news of Jesus on my Facebook page and help my friend with the program and also God came through for me.
“In an instant, God was faithful all because He purposely stacked the odds against me and prompted me to do something ridiculous—give when I really had nothing at all to give. And when I simply obeyed, withholding nothing, He gave abundantly!!