Published at the right time!

I am extremely grateful to my beloved Heavenly Husband for His sweet way of responding to my prayer and desire to be purified. I was precisely struggling with the issue of television at home, which is something I have been exposed to since my marriage was restored. During my restoration process, thanks to the lessons of How to be Blessed, I fasted from television and focused only on things that led me to my Heavenly Husband, without a doubt, that helped a lot to cleanse my thoughts!

I have to praise the Lord because even though television is present in my home today, He has given me wisdom and a natural rejection of bad things so when there were bad scenes I closed my eyes and ears and waited for a long time to hear again and then see, upon noticing this my husband began to advance those scenes when they occurred, and it is something that I continued doing following his example. However, these last two weeks there has been a series that has these types of scenes unexpectedly, there are some that from context one deduces what can happen and it is easy to anticipate it to avoid it, but others come out of nowhere and that is what It has affected me, every time this happened I was left with a feeling of guilt and shame, going before my Beloved caused me shame... I did not feel I had "clean hands and a pure heart" since I had those images in my mind although It was not intentional.

This morning, I mentioned this to my Beloved, and He told me “Depart from evil and do good” I went to that passage in the Bible and what caught my attention was what verse 12 says: “... but the face of the Lord is against those who do evil” He added “be holy as I am Holy” Then what He was telling me was that just as His face is against, that is to say, turned away as if He turned it the other way so as not to see evil, that I am acting, in the same way, every time, even so, I had doubts about how to deal with the situation with my husband at home, later when I had time to read the blog and I read Principle #10 “Name Them One by One” I understood what I needed: to do something good accordingly.

In my time with HIM in the morning, He made me see that He says that no one can harm me if I show zeal [imitating HIM] for what is good, so I can see that He knows perfectly well that when we are faced with those who do not obey Him, we feel afraid of doing things God's way and being judged, criticized, etc. So He says I don't have to fear my husband if he asks why I change activities when those things happen (which usually happens when I do something other than what he planned to do together) I think my fear goes towards my perception that I am not good with explanations and I do not want to fall into religiosity (which tells me that I am leaning on my strength and not on His), so I tend to avoid prompting the question. So I need to ask for wisdom to know what to say with meekness and reverence...

My Beloved has sweetly blessed me with this lesson just in time to remind me that “for those whose husbands are at home, you do not have the authority to rid your house of sin, but you certainly can fast and pray for the Lord to condemn to their husbands or at least to get fed up enough with the consequences to act and do something about it", these words comfort me and are a guide to continue... I asked why do you allow my husband to continue "in darkness" if My purity is very important to be close to You? Perhaps it leads us to the point of abhorring [as He does] sin? Then during lunch, He led me to Habakkuk where He told me that He knows it and is working on it. He caught my attention with: “You are too pure to consent to evil, to contemplate iniquity with pleasure” and I was precisely hating what I saw and I had no intention of staying watching it!!

So this verse completed in my mind the living lesson “Temptations” that I read over the weekend, I realized the enemy presents things to us [in this case images or scenes] to tempt us but that I did not consider staying there to contemplate I did not welcome the evil that was presented to me, but I fled, just as Erin did in her vision about the man who offers her the stolen bike. So that feeling of guilt should not be in me, because my Beloved knows my heart and knows that I have also prayed for my husband to take his rightful place as leader and priest of our home and fulfill his role as sanctifier of it. Furthermore, He reminded me His promise:

"For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay" Habakkuk 2:3

In His promise, I continue to wait with the joy of knowing which path I should walk when those situations arise again! What a joy that I did not give in to shame to separate myself from my Beloved, but rather opened my heart and listened to His word, which He so perfectly confirmed. How wonderful how He guides us and how each lesson we read does what it has to do at the time HE has it, it wasn't even my plan to read the living lessons for the weekend, but HE put it in my heart for a good reason and He sheduled the HTBB lesson for today too! How beautiful is my Beloved!