Ran Into My Room to Cry in His Arms

♕ Today's Promise: "Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood." Ephesians 6: 11-12

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Hello Ladies, We decided to invite the closest family for my daughter’s birthday. My elder brother decided to sleep home for that occasion. When Saturday arrived, I started decorating and arranging the house in my flesh. People were to come over at 2 pm and at 11:30 am EH (earthly husband) was still sleeping. I was deeply sad that he would not help me, but I did not say anything. Instead I thought that when my brother would come he would witness what I am going through and help me prepare. I was putting my faith in a man... again ! When he arrived, he was in a bad mood and very harsh with me. Before I even have time to complain, my HH (Heavenly Husband) closed his heart.

He was scolding at me and was very mean. The Lord enabled that so I won’t fall into the trap of complaining. Instead I was so worn out, that I stopped everything and ran into my room to cry in His arms. I repented for nearly falling into the trap of putting my hope in a man and having that desire of complaining and attract pity on me. I rested in His arms for a while and then I got back downstairs. My EH’s (earthly husband) sisters arrived. They could see I was tired and they pampered me and told me nice and comforting words (they have no idea what is going on with my EH). They also told me that they got my EH on the phone this morning. He was telling them how his body was not able to lift him up (he has a heavy sickness). He was almost crying because he was not able to get up this morning. See how the Lord showed me again not to trust what I see! It is not that he refused to help me, it is just that he could not.

The party went on, and everyone had fun.

I was so tired when everybody left, I put the kids to bed and went to sleep. EH (earthly husband) and my brother spent the evening together.

In the beginning of my journey, a year ago, I did the huge mistake of telling my brother everything that I was going through with my EH. He knows all the details. Then I came to know RMI, I repented and never talked about it again. When I woke up this morning, my brother got mad at me (again). He said that I deserved all I got. I have not changed one bit since last year and this is why EH and I are not even sharing a room. He said that I can hope for things to happen, but all the prayers in the world will not help me, because I am the person I am. I can hope, but my situation will never change.

Ladies, I had my daughter in my arms. I held her tight as my heart was pounding in my chest. I did not say anything. I did not cry. I confess my heart was bleeding inside of me. Since I did not respond my brother demanded that I apologise to him for what and who I am, which I did (agree quickly). Needless to say that I felt like a rag, BUT then the pain stopped there immediately. Every morning I dive myself in HIS word and I knew that my brother’s words were lies from the enemy. And even though I felt like I have been stabbed, I felt HIS mighty armor on me. The one we read about in Ephesians 6. I knew I have the shield of faith, the sword of the Spirit, I know His gospel of peace! My heart stopped crying and I felt the urge to bless him and be kind to him. When he left I hugged him and wished him to get home safe.

Prior to that day, I just finished a 3 days fasting. I felt nothing special but I know now that He was preparing me for this test. He was putting His mighty armor on me. I want to encourage you to dwell and spend time with Him EARLY in the morning. Make sure His full armor is on you before you even speak to anyone. I am so thankful to this ministry which taught me to dive into His love letters for me. Had I not put myself under His mighty arms, this story would have been different.

"Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God." Ephesians 6: 11-17

"Even my close friend, someone I trusted one who shared my bread, has turned against me." Psalm 41:9

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